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2004-11-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

hey blog..u noe wat i'm feeling rite now..down..really down..the down is a down tt nobody can ever feel it...as usually i'm weak..but today..i'm double weak..having myself to take a deep breath for a few times today..and then i will juz close my eyes while tears strolled down..i juz wonder when these tears goin to dry up..or whether is there the day for my tears to dry up..i dun mind crying n crying n crying non stop till i become like the one and only late Tan Sri P.Ramlee in the movie kassim selamat where he cried till he's blind..i cried for a reason..not juz becos for fun or laughter or to have sympathy of others...its those feelings inside me that i can't simply let out eventho to the most closest person on earth..its not tt i dun want to let it out..but then..i felt tt nobody will understand...mebbe i'm wrong..mebbe there's somebody who understand me..its juz tt i dun see it...i dunno...ramadan mth this yr has been one tears shedding for me...i duno how many days i have cried..aniwae..dun care bout it..its nothing for u to know,blog..well..as u can see..i'm pouring out to u...only u are there for me 24/7..ya..one thing lacks is tt..u can't respond to me...u can't do anything...u dun even haf any feelings...u are juz plainly a page which i have painted with words all over...words tt carries my feelings..my thougts..and etc..well..wateva it is i felt more relief and taken aback after typing all my feelings out to u...thanx niwae blog..thanx...

oh ya..lets stop talking bout my down-ness..it doesn't go aniwhere aniwae...well..Hari Raya is the day after tmrw...i mean..on sunday..not the movie "The day after Tmrw"...but still i'm not feeling too excited like those other years...mebbe juz bein traumatise a lil bit with those tears shedding...do hope this yr is a great one...but then thinking of i haf to skool..i dun think so its goin to be those happening one..hmmm..talking bout hari raya..i think i got to start helping my mom with pre-hari raya activities...of cos its those vacuum..hang curtain...wipe window...change sofa cover..ya..and not to forget..cookies..making cookies...tiring..not goin to skool tmrw...juz wanna act as if i wake up late as for i help my mom till late at nite and then wake up at 11+...idiotic..i noe..but wat to do..oh ya..before i forget i got into my french elective same as wada..and the rest like sha,waa all those..but sadly...eventho me n wada same class..we are separated in this elective..i juz dunno why the hell is tt so...haiz~~ gonna be alone..sad...its ok..haf to learn to be independent by now...ok lah..gtg ya..take care blog..and ya..take care to all reading too..if u are reading la...adios~

2004-11-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can juz stop crying and juz let my heart torn or shredded into pieces slowly without ppl knowing...i dunno y i'm being one emotional freak this past few days...i'm juz lonely i gez...i noe i'm not alone as i haf alot of friends...but haiz~ its ok..no one understands...well, i've fear now..fear of ppl angry at me...fear of ppl saying harsh things at me...i dunno..i've become a weak soul...unvulnerable...not as strong as last time..i dunno y..as days pass..i will fear of wat will happen tmrw...what will my day be tmrw...for sure all of us hope to have a happy..fun..joyful day..no one wants to have it sad..bad..unlucky day...but as for me..everytime i wish it to be happy..it will turn out another way...now i juz can't wish animore...it doesn't seem to work..its only making me hoping for it je..plain hope..but then..at last it will turn out to have a "i-don't-hope-it-to-happen-situation"..me being a negative thinker as always will always came out wif ridiculous thoughts all those...but mebbe its true..u mite noe..onli Him knows abt it...well wat i was thinking was tt..mebbe my life as an 18 years old girl is like this...having to shed tears everyday...having to bear with disappointment each day...i dun want it of cos..but wat to do if it is already written in His book...i can juz pray for it not to happen..but its His job whether to approve the prayer or not...i doubt so He approve my prayer..cos everytime i pray for this not to happen again..it still does...

i admit tt i'm not an understanding person...ya..i realise i'm selfish too...mebbe tts my weakness..i feel bad abt it...its kinda disappointing when ppl think tt way...i'm sorry i dun realise it fast enuf tt i'm not understanding and selfish..if not..long time ago i will already warn u abt my bad points...cos i dun want u to have such person as ur friend...wat i want for u is the best..the best of all the best...so if i'm not the best..then i will find the best one for u so tt u will be happy and ur life will not be will all this disappointment tt i've gave u...how i wish i can find u one person tt can make u smile all the way and not even make u cry...not like me...i'm shameful of myself...don't even know how to treat a friend like u with TLC...wat i noe to do is to make u cry...as everytime i said...making me cry by u its alrite..i dun mind..howeva nowadays i've realise tt u haf started to either change or its juz me being paranoid...i myself dunno...i wonder y we must end up in this path...where's the happiness tt we always shared last time..i miss it..truly i am..since i'm scared to pour out to u..so mebbe i can pour out here..actualli..i cried all those is becos of how sad i see the path tt we are at rite now..quarrelling with u i dun mind..but i juz get weaker and weaker too..as u started to be harsh and gets angry easily...howeva i tried to slumber my face and ask for forgiveness and beg all those as to solve the matter..i dunno whether u appreciate it or not..i believe u do..but i am juz sad tt the way i get treated its like i better off get a tight slap from u...truthfully i'm hurt..but then u noe rite..hurt by u its alrite...jealousy also plays a part here...i noe u must be saying why the hell must i feel jealous all those..seriously..i dunno...tt feeling juz keep coming back to me..wat i juz want to say its tt i'm totally sorry for wat trouble i've made all this while for u...i juz hope to have those good all days back with u...i juz simply can't bear any more disappointment and harsh sayings from u...the least thing i want from u is juz give me back those good all days we had...if u can't then its ok..dun force urself..wateva it is i want u to be happy...dun haf to worry or care abt me..till then..i haf to stop here..oh ya..to u guys..i'm sorry for the long non update from me..quite busy with my last stopover for TEP..its at a call centre..so ya..busy calling ppl..aniwae for stopover C(BPOS iBid) i got a B for it..alhamdulillah..for the last 2 stopover i get a B...i wonder wat will i get for this last stressful stopover..howeva..all this grades are juz grades..wat more impt is YOU..even how high my mark is..or excellent i've done in my TEP..but there's no u..i dun tink so i can make it..my world..total darkness..ok la..take care then..update again wheneva i can...adios~

= It's amazing how much somebody can break your heart and you can still love them with every broken piece of it. =

2004-10-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

HARLOW!!! hehe..so so so sorry peeps for the long lost MIA session... =) i'm quite "busy" lah nowadays..aniwae now i've update already..so to ppl like mina..here it is..my update..hehhe..k k..sorry ya if i never update..one thing lazy..then nowadays also i come back home then at about 9+ like tt i'll be so damn sleepy...its like funny yet scary seh..hehe..i mean..funny becos..i used to be the nite owl fida..but now..cannot already..hahahaha..then scary becos i'm afraid if it continues like this i can't do my project flash and logo seh...cos i come back home..eat..then sleep..hahaha..moreover now we the muslims are in the fasting period..Ramadan..hehe..so realli2 lethargic man...dunno y seh...oklah..wateva it is..i've update already today..since today i manage to keep my eyes wide open...hehehe..well..i'm sure my post this time will be long..longgg..and longggerrr.....hehehehe..but i try to keep it short ya..ok let me start...

ok as u noe now i've change to my last stopover in TEP..can u believe it? its like so fast....juz by like tt onli wants to end already TEP...haiz..gonna miss it seh...realli i will...first and foremost i will miss my FRIENDS, GREAT PEEPS i've found during TEP...ok..let me name them k..hehhe..to start..in TPRD,my 1st stopover friends like none other than my loveliest HUDA aka freshie..hahaha..Joanne,Ada,WILIN and WILLIE (da jokers),Jeffrey,Amanda,Jolene,Liang2...then friends in BPOS_iBid like Rasidah,Shafa,Victor,Hazel,Jenny,MONG..haha..Eugene,Buven,Yana,Amutha...and then friends in my last stopover now, CRMCC(call centre) 2..like my kekek n idiotic biatch..Linda..hahaha..main2 jer..she's fun to be wif niwae..non stop make me larf..not to forgot her partner in crime, Farsheila..hehe..oh ya my fellow TYCO mates...ikhsan,KK,Shi Yun(shishi),hong yu,catherine and jiayi...well for sure all those supervisors who have took care of me all this while and guide me all the way thru the stopover like Ms Mona Ang(TPRD),my "beloved" Mr Woon(iBid) and Ms Ming(CRMCC 2)...thanx again for guiding me...hehe..as for all my friends that one...i juz want to say thanx too...nice knowing u all...meeting different and new ppl is fun u noe..hehe..juz hope tt we can still keep in contact..and will say hi and bye when we are back to our classical studies...haiz~ oh ya..i forget...my other friends outside than my stopover like my loveliest sharifah aka neng tonyeh,liza "hanim",farhana,liyana,aidah(my kuzzin which now i start to talk to..haha),lina,sity,not to forget my twin sis..hahaha..FIDA too..Rafidah..haha..she's raf..i'm fida..so we are rafida..hahahaha..ok fine..nonsense..the guys like sunil and ipin also not to be forgotten...i'm glad to get to know all of them...its been great all this while during TEP life wif u all arnd....hahaha..awww so touching..niwae its true..my circle of friends have enlarged, days in skool become more livelier wif them and their nonsense-ness...hehehe..how i luv it...ok i noe...talking bout all this new friends...dun worry..i am sure for not to forget my DEAREST,LOVELIEST,DARLINGEST FWISM minus the F lah..which is me..hahaha..namely WAA,NADZ,SHA and MINA...and also the thorn amg the roses last time,Erwin...hehehe...once again..thanx ya..thanx alot..without u all..i dunno lah wat happen to me...it will be a world of total darkness....(",)

ok ok enuf about friends lah eh...hope u guys read tt paragraph above to know how grateful i am to have known u all...*winkz* alrite now lets talk bout my 18TH BURSTDAY!! hahaha..ya..AT LAST..I'VE TURNED 18 on 14-10-2004 fyi...its the greatest b'day i've had so far..cos 18 yrs of living...mainly my b'day will fall during examination..and my friends will be busy studying...but this yr...all thanx to my dearest sha for the planning...and also the rest which are part of it too...without u all this surprise thingy will never happen rite..hehe..thanx alot ya...its so sweet of u guys..*muackz* well happy to turn 18..but not tt happy tho..cos only got the padlock..but dun haf the key to open it...which i will get in 3 yrs time..hehehe..however syukur alhamdulillah...thanx to God tt i've lived for 18yrs already.. :p hmmm..it seems tt its quite long entry already rite...well its late at nite already too..and i need to wake up for sahur tmrw....ya so i tink its better i stop here...juz b4 i put this entry to an end...juz to say once again thanx alot to those peeps that i've known...hope our friendship will keep on goin and as for those darling of mine(WISM),hope that our friendship gets stronger and stronger as each day pass ya...i luv ya all so much...yep..so much...awwww...heh..take care all..adios~

p/s- mina mina..maceh eh mina bilang satu internet aku jatuh kat blog kau...hehehe..*muka mengamok* hahaha...tkde lah..tkper...tk kesah...famous sikit nanti aku..and ya to linda..hahaha..ok tak..entry aku ader nama kau ni..hhahaha..blanja buka puase lak k..maceh..:P

2004-10-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps for a long MIA session...juz too tired and busy to update my blog now..hehe..eventho its block leave for me..i'm still busy goin for tuition and stuff...oklah..let me update u all bit here and there wat actualli happen for this past few weeks...alrite since its block leave week for me...i'm so glad that i can wake up late..ehehe..howeva its kindda bored to sit at home onli...ok on wednesday i went to skool as i join NYP Pal wif sharina,sharifah and liza...syahidah suppose to come but last minute she can't made it...so sharina,sharifah n liza was given excuse letter since our orientation starts at 2pm at LTK 2..ya..so me come to skool and meet them...then go to LTK 2...at there we were separated into different grps...me n sharina..in grp F..since liza's n sharifah's name is not in the registeration..they are told to write their name...and i thot F is for female..so i also put F on sharifah's and liza's name lah...but then..actualli its the grp..so at last..hahahaha..4 of us same grp...lucky seh...alrite then we went into the LTK to sit down and wait to be brief...not tt many ppl lah..but i got see some of year 2 SBM ppl too...but i tink mainly its year 1...hehe..so we also felt like freshie on tt day...after briefing..we were assigned to a leader...and then we haf to go for a campus running...we were like wat...run?!! hehehe..but actualli its like tour arnd NYP lah..go to SIT..SDN...SHS...SCL..SEG..all those others skool including SBM...hehehe...for tt campus run onli it tooks 3 hrs seh...so blardy long...tiring sia...get to go into design school...their rooms all those..nice ah..then get to see robots all made by the SEG i tink...diploma in mechatronics...

ya..then they appoint me as the leader..sharina,sharifah they all lah...nothing to do..juz say my name..hehee..so i haf to hold this paper where we haf to fill in the blank of the skool's name and room no. all those and let the lecturer that was briefing on us to sign..quite interesting lah..as we manage to go to the SHS..where it smells like hospital..niwae it is a hospital...a backup one where in times of war and the hospital has been occupied, NYP school of health science block will be made into a hospital...and ya..there's mortuary too..hehe..spooky...sharifah,sharina n liza can't believe bout it...hehe..well its nursing...for sure they are goin to learn how to handle or those corpses too wat...kherkherkher..aniwae after all those..we also need to go to SBM..at SBM our stop is at Call Centre..hehe..so sha,sharifah n liza was excited bout it..cos jeffrey tan will be briefing us....ya..after all those...we were damn worn out and wanted to go off early..dun want to stay till late at nite...so walk back to LTK 2 to debrief..then dinner was served...then after eating..we slowly went off...hehehe..then we decided to play pool rather than goin home cos sharifah want to learn how to play it...so ok lah..she wants us to go lucky plaza cos her shafa'at was there..but we decided to play at AMK onli..hehe..so play pool till 9+ and then go home...was a tiring day for everybody i gez...

then on thursday i haf to come back to skool to present my grp creativity project....me,nadz,shidah,shafa and amutha...yeap..so meet them in skool at 10..do some preparation and 11 meet mr woon at one of the tutorial room...wasn't nervous at all..but then tat woon ah...shitty lah him..ask so many questions...then he told us tt we suppose to bring the pebbles and like show and tell lah bout our product..but then since we doin service..how we noe seh must bring..haiz~ wateva..hope we pass...k lah..thats all i tink for now..juz have no mood to type nimore....i'm feeling so dooowwnnnn rite now...dunno y..haiz~ life..if no ups..then it will always be down...well..syukur alhamdulillah...its all God's gift for my life to be like this...alrite then..take care u all..adios~

2004-09-19T14:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there guys..sorry again for not updating since 12 sept..i tink i'm gonna update each week once which i will summarize the whole week...well my week has not been good aniwae...stressed wif iBid, stressed wif money, stressed wif some other things...haiz~ i felt tt my life has juz gone down the drain like tt this past few days...at any point of time when i'm alone tears will juz rolled down my cheeks...i dunno y...i dun even want to know y...it will onli make me cry even more...i dun care if u all say tt i'm a cry baby or wat..but i tink crying is the onli thing i can do...i dunno how much tears haf i let out for juz this one week...haiz~ sometimes i even thot of starting back my old habit..but i try not to...that is not the worst..i even think of doin physical things to me...or juz hoping for a vehicle to run down on me...ya in a short word commit suicide....i gez u all muz be shock...well not to worry guys..i will never do such thing..if i want to die also..i want to die in peace..not that cruel death...i noe its wrong niwae...

well after so much thinking..that is not the way to solve my probs and stressness..onli stupid ppl do that...but then i'm considered stupid too..cos i've thought about it eventho i'm not doin it...its ok..i'm thankful to God aniwae as to make my iman strong..or not..i could haf been gone by now....ok lets stop talking about all those..wat had happened has happened...meanwhile, i will juz collect back the fida that i used to be some how...but there's goin to be some difference in it...yes..there will..and to that person..i juz hope u'll be happy wif wat u've wish for...as happy as you can be...

my week has nothing much to say...plain and boring...goin to skool..goin to tuition...ya..thats wat i do...nothing much interesting things happen...i'm gez i'm gonna stop here...till then..take care...

2004-09-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

yoz..hehe..watsup doc? alritez..sorry for not updating..been busy for this week..as there were ICA 2 on thursday..yup...e-case study bout customer service...25% is the weightage...quite heavy ya...well do a last minute study...ahahaha..like usual...i dunno lah..whether wat i wrote is relevant..do hope to pass...i dun want to repeat anything seh..well ok..that is for thursday..as for friday..i haf sharing session..and iBid Fulfillment turn to present...so me,shidah and shafa represent the grp...shockingly i dun feel nervous at all...hehehe..mebbe i heck care already lah..seeing my BPOS mate as one bunch of cool ppl...hehehe..as for yesterday,saturday...i was needed to help in the makansutra..SBM urban challenge ah...like last time where we go to sentosa tt one...but i tink tt was fun then this one ah..this time round..we haf to find the shop and then buy the food and eat it...quite boring ah..nadz can't help out..only me..howeva..kelissa msg me saying tt she need me to become the participants instead...seeing tt its goin to be bullshit..i juz back out..well..its saturday niwae..need my free time...hehehe..oh ya..as wat nadz say..lucky i neva join cos got this bloody stranger joinin too...ya..those who noe me and were there wif me in the lift should noe i'm talking bout who..i felt like want to break down or say fuck off to him je seh....its like so ergh...get on my nerve sia when marcus keep talking to tt bloody stranger and at the same time having the intention to shoot at me or wat...haiz~ wateva lah...heck care...

well since i'm not skooling nimore on saturday...its goin to be bored,bored and more bored seh...dun go out all those..haiz~ so rimas seh...but nvm lah..who seh want to go out wif me...hehhe..oh ya..juz finished watchin scream 3 on channel 5...kindda lame show ah...its not thrilling at all...but rather so kekek2...as wat sharifah says...a parody..hehehe..ceh..i learned one new word... ; ) as for tmrw i think goin to my aunts place to teach tuition...gonna confirm wif her tmrw...but rite now..i want to sleep already...nowadays..i get easily tired seh...hehe..so i tink update u all again some other time k...take care all..adios~ oh ya..yesterday colin's birthday..hehehe..so.........................................

Happy Birtthday Colin!!!

2004-09-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

hi all...new layout...hehe..emily the strange..cool huh..but then..boring lah..dun haf my pictures all those...its ok..will use this one for the time being while i check on more new layout..i simply dunno how my superstar deejay layout juz gone like tt..hmmm..i dun do anythink to my template wat...weird seh..haiz~ its ok then..juz use this layout first...well u guys go where today? hehe..me juz stay at home..rotting infront of this computer 24hrs...hahahaha...thinkin to go out..but nah..nobody want to go out wif me...hahahah...so sad rite.. :( k k..its alrite...i'd managed to edit my blog in tt way...howeva..something wrong wif the song..hmmm..gotta check on tt...u guys..do comment ya..hehe..well today is Affan's sis wedding...he invited me and all those...but then..i can't make it..so msg him and apologised...as for tmrw..its 1 week school holz for those "children" hahaha...ya..ya..great..they haf fun enjoyin themselves goin out all those...but then..those poor TEP souls haf to still struggle goin to skool...howeva tmrw its no term break already..its ICAs week i gez...how i wish we are like those kids...having this 1 week break..cos i do need a break...hahahaha..oh ya..its sept already..by the end of the month..starting from 27th sept till 3rd oct..will be the first time working experience for me..heheh..goin to work wif apple stiz...ya..i eva told u guys before...i'm scared actualli..cos for 27th and 28th sept..i will be alone at PS...only on 29th sept goin to be wif nadz at takashimaya level B2...hehehe...hope everything goes on well...get done n over wif the work..and wait for the cash to flow in...hehehehe...isn't tt great..can't wait for tt...

oh ya..talking bout holidays all these...i'm kindda sad lah saturday no need to come to skool anymore..hehe..its half sad and half happy..happy tt wow..at last gotta wake up late..and sad cos can't see my frenz...ya..i've started to miss them already...hehehe...i noe they dun lah...but who cares..i do..hahaha...but then its ok..mebbe we can either go out together then on saturday...since there is no need for us to come back to skool...well normal weekdays will stretch to 6pm..i dun mind...30 mins later..doesn't make any different..hehe...ok lah..i tink till here lah..nothing much to update niwae...juz wanna say tt enjoy ur holidays "kids"....heheh..gd luck for those havin their ICAs week..and miss u all for those frenz of mine...hahaha...take care..adios~

2004-09-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

hey all..i'm back..hahaha..sori for the long MIA session..haha..either tt i'm busy or i nowadays always sleep early...hehehe...well..nothing much happen to my life this past few days...onli tt i saw wesley at century square on wednesday i think..hehe..follow nadz to NOKIA Care Centre when suddenly i heard a boy calling my name..thinkin tt some gangsta not happy wif me..hahahah...but then how come the gangsta noe my name rite..but i was greeted wif a cute smile from wesley...at tt point of time..i was like missing him badly..hahahaha...its been a long time since i saw him...well..as wat nadz put in her blog,wesley has become a change person...i'm proud of him...so happy for him..howeva wesley is a nice guy thru out..onli tt he mix wif the wrong company..but now..since he's out from all those dark life..i suppose tt he will be much more nicer...hehehe..so catch things up for awhile outside the NOKIA Care Centre..then we make our move first...i miss those secondary life..how i wish i can go back to those time...hehehe..

ok let me update bout wat happen this week...mainly not much work to do at BPOS iBid..hehe..cos its term break..and so we haf so much free time at there..till the guys can download games to play like arcade..and as for yesterday we had this team building challenge organise by the sport and wellness ppl...kindda lame at first..but it was fun..haha..changed into my siglap shorts and play games like hula hoop,move ur body and monster...all those team building games ah..after tt we got some refreshment..and then went back to our respective stopover...well..today is NADIRAH's birthday...ya..tt lizard...hehehe..gonna haf some surprise for her planned by shafie,her boy...hehe..hope she will be surprise...hahahha..k lah..tink till here..oh ya..today neva skool...cos now..there's no need to come to skool on saturday..yeah..hehehe..but then weekdays tep hours will be till 6pm and onli on friday till 5.30..hehe..its ok..at least saturday we are free....weee!! k k..till here ya..miss ya all..take care..adios~

HaPpY 18th BiRtHdAy NaDdY!!!!

=FrEnZ 4 eVa=

2004-08-30T14:51:00.000+08:00

watsup DJ!!! hehe..updates from BPOS room..juz finished our lunch..supposed to b back at 2..but then we were slacking all the way at mac..me,sharina,liza,sharifah,nadz,huda and the onli thorn among the roses..erwin..ehhehe...ya..was simply talking rubbish down there..and sharifah will always talked out something out of topic one..hahahah..slengerz ah tt girl..hehe..so after much larfin our heads off and getting our cheek muscle to work out..we decided to go back to our respective stopover to start being efficient and do work..hahaha..but then as for me..my fulfillment team has already finished wif the performance report this morning and so there's nothing to do anymore...so sianz..*stop for awhile to listen to victor's conversation wif mr. woon on the phone*
GOSH! guessed wat...

mr woon juz called to inform us tt we got job to do...that SICC project lah..haiz~~ idiots...hehehe..well i tink can't update more then...gotta finish up the project...till here ya..take care all..adios~

2004-08-26T12:43:00.000+08:00

hey all..watsup..hehe..since nothing to do, let me update here in my cosy,nice BPOS room with a nice weather outside..hehehe..first of all..so so so sorry for not updating since 17th August..last monday was my first day in BPOS i_BiD..how i love the room here..hahaha..so cosy..was being put in the fulfillment team..which they say the hardest of all in i_BiD..got to do reports and reports and reports...but then..after 4 days in here,it seems that we have no work at all..hehe..got also but then its more of the relax time..as we have less work to do, our supervisor which is in-charge of Singapore International Chamber of Commerce (SICC), we are then given work to do to finish up the previous batch project..but then all those finish already..so now, slacking all the way..so tiring u noe slackin all the way like this...how i wish i got work to do..hahahha..funny rite..got work to do..complain like wat..then no work to do also complain..hehe...ok lah..i_BiD was fun..make some new friends like shafa,shida, amazingly farshiela..hehehe..and ya..some others..shafa seems to be a serious person with a stern look for the first impression of me..but knowing her for 4 days already, it turns out to be the other side..hahaha...she's funny ah...like blur2 like that..cos she told me that she never go PS before..never taste lemon barley also..hahahaha..funny rite..i mean its not that i'm saying her "suaku" like tt..but then its like weird lah..seeing her thinking that she's like us all those keeping update bout the world..fashion..food..stuffs like computer, handphones..hahahah..but then she's different from wat i thot..hmmm...from the beginning of starting this year 2 and knowing new friends..alot of them are those different from what i thot about them...as you know i ever say bout sharifah,huda,liza,farhana..those ppl that i thot differently before knowing them...its great ah making and knowing new ppl all these...becos by then..then we know whether wat we always think about the person true or not...hehehe..

as for now,in BPOS,slowly i'll be making friend with farshiela..ya..waa's and sha's secondary mate..i tink it will be an achievement like tt making friend wif her rite..hahaha..now we talk2 like normal already...hmmm..a beginning..hehehe...juz like sharifah..slowly chatting wif her online..then start to become closer as we met in skool...hehe..its an achievement when i manage to make friends wif sharifah u noe..hahahha...honoured gitu kan..hahahhaha...wateva..haha..k k..i'm thankful ah to meet all these people...they are great bunch of people ah..hehe..i must say that ah..*winkz* ok since being posted to BPOS, i have started to miss huda,waa,ada,joanne..ya..joanne..hahaha..if u read this yes i miss u...hahahaha..liang2 too..i miss bullying huda...seeing her every morning and irritate her thru the day..haiz~ hahahaha..ya..i noe..only me lah miss her..but then..i dun tink so she miss me....hehe..alrite let see wat i have to say some more..hmmmm..oh ya..still having wilin,willie and jeff in this i_BiD was fun...lucky to haf them...if not..the room will be dull..hehehe...the 3 of them plus melvyn it can turned the room upside down..hehe..ok let see wats more to type...hmmmm....well..dun tink so got anything else..hehehe...k ah..so i tink till here ok..hehe..adios all~ take care...

2004-08-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey peepz..so sorry for not updating for quite some time...hehe..quite busy this week ah..juz change stopover mah..hehe..aniwae, i will be updating soon ah..dun worry k..hehe..kk..i gtg now...gd nite ya..take care..adios~

2004-08-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

helo there..in my work room now..B108...is like nowadays quite slack already ah...hehehe..today's meeting Ms Ang brief about the summary report and the handover tmrw..as for me,nadz n willie..we will be helping the events mgmt wif their GV radiocard event at atrium for tmrw and the day after tmrw..after helping wif the roadshow for the sports fair..i felt tt it was quite fun to handle this kind of events..selling things and making money..hahahah...tts wat i called business..hee..ok ok..yesterday's entry was "i dunno wat happen to me entry"..so sorry ya guys if got any bad words i blurt out...hehe.all those vulgarities..hehehe...so sorry..

well as for today..actualli need to start doin my summary report or touch the business process and development notes for the ICA this coming friday...haiz~ its like a long time never hold notes or study and then i felt lazy and no mood to study anymore..hehehe..stupid lah they all...while doin TEP also want to haf ICAs all those...for wat seh..its like we are concentrating on our jobs...then at last haf to hold the notes and started remembering words again..haiz~~ aniwae this week is goin to be a busy week for me ah...wif the summary report to finish up by the end of the week..helping out in the GV radiocard thingy..then still got handover all those..ya..i dun tink so i'm goin to teach tuition this week ah..but then i think they haf their CA2 coming up..haiz~~ wat a week again...so stress sia..i can die lah like this...oh ya..today is lina's b'dae..she's from CRMCC...well happy b'dae to her then..hehehe..oh..i forgot..hehe..i managed to get BEAUTY and THE BEAST for sha..hehehe..she is so delighted bout it..well original some more..special edition..hehhe..hope she love it..ok lah guys..got to go as for now..update u all at nite ya..take care all..adios~

p/s: mina..sorry for the tag..i thot its marmar at first..then u..but its actualli all from u..hahaha..aniwae thanx alot..take care of urself girl..dun cry ah..be strong wif wateva u're goin thru now..I'M A SURVIVOR...I WILL SURVIVE..hahaha..buayz~

2004-08-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

well its monday..start of a new week..was thinkin to not haf any of those shitness again like last week..but it seems..haven yet over...i dunno how worst is this week..haiz~ my life was like counting the days pass and also thinking forward of whether today..tomorrow or the next day after tmrw will be the same shitness everytime...i can't run away from it..its all in God's hand..He do all this..He control all this..not me..i dun wish for things to be like this..but mebbe He give it to me as i deserved this kind of shitness..i noe He loves all His followers...but then of cos if the person is bad..he or she deserved a bad things too...ya..i accept the fact..that i am one idiotic girl...i am..i've learned to ~~hate~~ myself...i do ~~hate~~ myself...i've started to be as ~~pessismistic~~ as i used to be already...i dunno y...my mind is 24/7 under construction...its in a total mess...i dunno when will i haf the time to clean up the mess i've made...i need time..i'm not wonderwoman who can clean up a big complicated mess in 1 day or a few hrs...

sometimes i felt tt my life is juz a ~~failure~~...~~failure~~ in everything...mebbe all this while tt happen in my life is also juz a miracle or for the sake of seeing me happy...but then..sooner..the ~~failures~~ started to come up slowly...if i was not tt strong and i haf the courage of a devil in me..i will be gone by now...leaving this world has 2 pts for it..the gd one is tt others are happy and dun haf much trouble having me in their life again...and the bad pt is tt i dun manage to live this world wif happiness as long as it can be wif the ones i love..esp. my frenz and family...if i'm gone..my parent will be alone..i'm worried of who goin to look after them...they only haf me in this world as a hope..wat happen to them if i'm gone...wateva it is..

I ~~HATE~~ MYSELF TO THE CORE!!!!

ok..it mite be weird and shocking to you all ah..y the hell am i suddenly like this..BUT then..its NOT for you to find out or wat lah..i mite be bad now ah...cos y...cos i ~~hate~~ myself...i'm an idiotic fucking bloody hell useless girl...oops..sorry for the vulgar...i'm too angry and frustrated to myself...this is the FUCKING BLOODY SHITTY feelings i've ever had...i'm in total blank...nothing much else to say out here....juz ~~hate~~ myself...i'm not forgiving myself foreva niwae...isn't tt great?? WEEEE~~~ i'm a fucking girl who's not forgiving myself foreva...WEEE~~

arh..fark ah...wateva it is..i'm gonna stand within...i'm tired...i'm sleepy..update you guys later2...gd nitez..take care..adios~

2004-08-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

home alone weekend...haiz~ first time in my 18yrs of living all my family went holz except me..hehe..i'm ok wif it..but then it seems weird ah without me goin...aniwae i manage to survive..eventho there's no food at home..haiz~ i miss my mom's cooking already...well..i noe..i can cook lah..some simple dish..but then..thinkin tt i'll be eating alone..is like..for wat seh..i rather be hungry ah like tt...thinkin to buy breakfast at the coffee shop near my hse..but i'm lazy to go...juz haf no mood like tt..eating alone..ok fine..if u all wanna say i'm not independent..then u may do so...well i'm the only child..wat do u expect...i can be independent..but then having this kind of weekend or days wif me alone felt like so miserably sad...hahaha..lucky they all go not tt long...tonite they'll be reaching home lah..so i tink i can survive and wait for them for about 8-10 hrs more..i'm a survivor..i'm gonna make it..i'm a survivor..keep on survivin'..hahaha..crazy me..

i'm bored..i haf no mood to type in more i gez...as u noe..this week its not my week..since monday till today mebbe...its juz not my week...haiz~ take care all ya..luv ya all..adios~

2004-08-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

wats wrong wif my week God...WATS WRONG...why..why u punished me like this..wat wrong have i done to receive this kind of punishment everyday....forgive me God..pls...i want no more of this kind of things happening to me again....not for this week at least...its enuf...i had enuf of tears to be shed God...pls...pity this weak soul here..i'm begging..i'm pleading..aku bermohon pada mu ya Allah..i dun mind if u want to punish me..but give me some rest to regain myself back...pls dun torture me like this continuosly....i dun blame anybody for such things to happen to me...but i'm curiously sad bout it..haiz~ haven yet friday the 13th and lots of unlucky things happen to me...i mean..unlucky like this matter and etc etc....i dun wish to further bloggin in bout it..its no use i gez..i tink i better stop here ah...gd nite then..take care..adios~

sorry.

2004-08-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

well hi there..its national day..and sad for those who went thru a shocking news such as a person u love went away...forever...from this world...ya..rabiah,suhayl's girlfren, her beloved grandma passed away last nite..she and me used to be one gd click where we use to follow everywhere our grandma goes..my late grandma n her late grandma was best fren since kampong days...and so whenever they went somewhere...rabiah's late grandma,nek enon, would bring her..and my late grandma would bring me..from there..we are like sisters...she's 1 yr older than me...its sad thinking back the past...late nek enon,nek tijah n my late grandma is so called the charlie angels during those days...wherever they go..they would be in 3...its a blow to late nek enon n nek tijah when my late grandma passed away 8 years ago...cos one of their best fren had went away forever leaving them both...since then...late nek enon n nek tijah seldomly went out..cos the one who would asked out was my late grandma..howeva..when my mom n aunts went for the visit in the morning juz now, nek tijah was like crying non stop and hugging my mom n aunts all tt...she was so sad...and she told my mom n aunts that now..left her alone...i dun tink so she'll be lonely ah...wif her grandchildrens all tt..but to think tt she have lost another best fren tt meant so much to her life..of cos she's mournful bout it...if i were to lose my best fren..not even gone forever..but juz drift away..i would be so sorrow..well i dun go juz now...only my mom n dad...but i did sedekah al-fatehah n some prayers hoping that her soul will rest in peace and semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh-nya selalu...Amin.

ya..tts one sad thing happen today...if i rabiah, i will be crying non stop for losing a special person in my life who haf took care of me since baby..howeva..we should redha wif her departure...Allah loves her more than us..we haf to accept the fact..oh well..tts sad ah..suppose to cry..but me..haiz~ i dunno watsup wif me today...i gez its juz one of my emo day...i dreamt of something i wish not to happen...really dun want tt to happen..waking up after the dream i found tears running my down my cheeks...and then received the news about nek enon some more..so i continued crying..i cried one thing cos i remember those days going out wif her and rabiah..second thing i cried becos i suddenly miss my grandma so much...i remembered bout her...ya..i managed to calm down...so after that watch tv..and then took a bath and go eat nasi lemak which my mom cooked..then went online and see that nobody is online..ya..was damn dead bored..tv shows also not tt interesting..so download some games and played..then went offline and watch the malay drama at suria..the "pokok petai,kereta sport"..quite hilarious..but then start of boringness again..while on tt boringness period..suddenly my mind is thinking bout the dream..i was wondering ah y sometimes dream can affect us in reality..like crying when we woke up all those..i dun haf any answer for tt...so if u guys out there knew..do drop by and tell me ya..

ok..then watch the parade in the living room wif my parents...eating crackers and drinking bandung...its fun..but watching the parade wif something on my mind is not tt fun i gez...it gets me tired and ended up i managed to catch 40 winks...woke up and its the fireworks part..so watch it till the end and went inside my room to watch Singapore Idol..still my mind swirling arnd thinking bout something but those contestant of Singapore Idol sure cracked me up a lil bit...wif the lemon tree guy..the guy who sing careless whisper and realli match the title...he was whispering all the way..the judges esp. douglas oliviero was larfing like mad...dick lee was like simon cowell...those sarcastic comments he throwed at the contestants...well thats for Singapore Idol..after that its FRIENDS..my fav. all time show...does cracked me up too..a bit here and there...howeva i juz broke down again..haiz~ i dunno watsup wif me today...i wonder y i cried..its not becos of my grandma..not becos of "him"..like duh..he's out of my life for sure...so i juz dunno y...mebbe my emotions overwhelmed me...

oh ya..tmrw will be a skool day for me..no more block leave..its huda,ada,amanda,joanne,jolene and liang liang turn for the leave..well gonna miss them alot...i'm glad to be back in skool...but thinking of the work load we goin to haf..haiz~~ i felt tired already..heard that Ms Ang want to haf roadshow this week..then mebbe finish up on the quotation or wat...i dunno..lets juz wait and see wat happen tmrw ya..as for now..i tink i'm goin to listen to some music and calm myself down...mebbe goin to sleep if music can't help me...so..u all take care ya..luv u all alot...adios~

2004-08-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!! IT'S NATIONAL DAY..weeee~~i'm proud to be a singaporean..hahahaha...39 years of independence...hmmm..quite young...my mom 51 already...so its like my mom older than singapore..hehehe..and tt means..my mom went thru those world wars...hmmm..cool~ hehe..

k k..tmrw will not be goin out...stay at home watch tv shows i gez..then in the evening gonna stay infront of the TV..and nobody shall disturb me..hahaha..gonna concentrate watchin the parade...weee~ hehehe...haiz~ i can't go mah...my family only got 2 tix..so my uncle n his son goin...its ok lah...i dun mind...watchin at home also can..more fun ah...can sleep..can eat ice cream...can drink coke..can sit sideways..anything lah..hahahaha...ok ok..before talkin bout National Day..let me update bout juz now ya...

alritez..i went to my uncle hse rite..ya..reach there and cik mah..my aunt whom i taught the kids tuition..ya..she were there already...then talk2 for awhile...and we were hungry..hehe..so she took out the McD coupons...and we were saying tt there's no more McD at the pasir ris central there..so where to buy seh...so at last..we decided to make it a delivery one...hahaha..cool..no need to go out and buy...hehe..ok ok..we bought a sumptuous one..the 4 EVM wif 20pc nugget..then we bought another 20pc nugget..ice cream..sundae float all those...so me go make the call lah..hehehe...then about 20 minutes later..hehe..so fast rite..hehe..a malay guy came..hahahaa...so cute...ahahahahah...then since its my name..so i haf to make the payment...hehe..so go out and pay him ah...hehehe...i loike~ hahaha..k k..then eat all those..after tt my aunt,cik lah, came home from wedding invitation...she was late by a step ah...hehehe...we ate halfway already..and she was like..wah...so much food ah...hehehe..and ya..i make sure not forgetting to mention the one treating it..hahaha..ya..its my uncle, Along, the one who pays my hp bill all tt...hahahaha...great rite..furthermore he gave me money...not much ah..20 bucks only for me to spent when my parents all those went for a holiday this coming saturday n sunday...ya..all my family will be goin...only me not goin..hehehe...i'll be HOME ALONE...hahahaha...but hope nothing happen like wat McCaulay Culkin experience when his family are away..hehehe..i'm big enuf niwae...ok the reason i dun go is tt...i'm schooling..hehehe..i noe..i can take flexi leave ah...half day aniwae...8.30-1pm..but then..juz feel like to stay at home alone ah...i mean...its hard for me to experience this kind of thing wat...haahaha..freedom!! hahaha..ok ok..ssshhh..dun tell ppl..hehe..

oh ya..let me continue..after eating all tt...talk2 all tt..its already 4pm...then we all started to get ready to go to the beach..hehee...high tide will be at 4.30pm..so prepare to go there ah...cik lah dun follow..cos tired..juz came back...so Along send us there...while goin downstair..saw my mom walking up the stairs like tortoise...haahaha..so slow..so she also never go lah...well...kinda fun..long time neva go beach...so swim n play2 all those till 6+..then went up and eat..after tt 7+ Along picked us home..hehehe..me so stupid never bring my inside clothing..hehe..only bring t-shirts and shorts...hehe..so went back to my uncle place...bathe and change to dry clothes...then talk2...wat else but gossip2 wif my aunt all those..then went home...not much things happen lah...but kindda sad or i dunno..wondering y..today 1 day haven heard anything from sharina...well..i noe lah..doesn't mean i haf to hear from her everyday..but then..juz wondering...haiz~ never mind lah..mebbe she's busy..its ok then..wateva it is..i hope she take care..oh ya..if those patriotic people...u can go and drop by my fren, willie, blog...hehehe..tt guy is crazy..hahaha..but kinda cool...great to haf a national anthem in ur blog....hehehe..k k..as for now..i'm goin to stop till here...tired ah..sleepy..hehehe...so to all gd nitez ya..take care always...luv ya all..adios~

p/s: to sharifah...if she's reading this..hahaha..I'm NOT photogenic for the last time..hehe...
and to sharina...hehe..i miss you...to all too.. ;-)

2004-08-08T13:29:00.000+08:00

Get out (leave) right now, this is the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
Cause I know about her (who?) and wonder (why) how I brought all the lies
You said you would treat me right, but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)

wooot~~ this song is nice..its kinda a new song always played by the radio station...how i like the lyric..hehehe...this is the chorus part...well..especially dedicated to "him"...he's out of my life....weeee~~~ :D

ok ok..this is juz a short update..cos..me want to go out..goin to my uncle hse at pasir ris there...then after tt mebbe at 4+ we goin to the beach...ya..cos the high tide will be at 4.30 arnd there...hehehe..well tmrw is NATIONAL DAY..so juz wanna wish my beloved country...a sunny island set in the sea..hahaha..HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY!!

== HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY MY SUNNY ISLAND SINGAPORE ==

ok ok..will update at nite again ya..as for now..gotta rush and get ready to go out...take care all..luv ya..*muackz* adios~

2004-08-06T15:00:00.000+08:00

hi all..well..today is friday..ya..me stuck at home..BORING man...hehehe..want to go out..but dunno where to go and whom to go out wif..hehe..well ppl all busy or juz tired i gez...aiyoh..faster lah open skool seh..today they got review session...TPRD team 3 have to present...wilin is having his block leave but then still haf to come back to present cos liang2 dun want to present..wah..so gentleman seh wilin..haha...

k k..let me update bout yesterday ya...well goin bugis wif the CRMCC girls rite...so meet them YCK interchange..but then..liza haf to go her workplace,hyatt @ orchard...got to do some stuff for awhile...so sharifah accompanied liza there ah..while me n sha go bugis first...so we took 851 there...reach at bout 6.30..and waa is late..so go to rockery at parco there..one of those shop sell bubble tea all those...bought bubble tea and chocolate pan puff...while waiting for waa and they all...then waa came...and we haf an itsy bitsy small photo session...ya..waa bring camera...then we hehehe..gossip here..gossip there..seems like its been a decade not talking wif each other..gossiping all tt..hahaha...its great...small sharing session for awhile..hehe...then called sharifah and ask where they all...since they've reached, we all go to the entrance at seiyu there to wait for them...saw them..and ya..hahaha...HUDA followed too..hahaha..great..like long time never see her like tt..hahaha..well i noe she dun miss me..but i do..hahahah...so after tt we walk2 at seiyu for awhile..and huda suddenly in need to do something..hahaha..but then she shy..doesn't feel nice lah to do in public...haahahaha...first time saw her want to do tt one...hahahha..then sha also want to do some girls stuff in the toilet..so we head to the toilet ah..waa went off to meet edi...so the rest went to the toilet...went inside the toilet and we started our kecoh-ness already...huda really can't stand it..and we quickly find her one cubicle...then she ask sharifah to put soap on the tissue ah..but then..tt aunty ah....go and amend her hair..rather than put the soap...and we started larfing all those...while huda struggling down there..hahaha..so me snatched the tissue and put the soap ah...and after tt me,liza n sharifah kept larfing...its like...funny lah..we gave huda motivation all those..to push and push..hahahahha...idiot sia...after awhile huda came out..and said tt she can't do it ah..cannot come out..and me n liza was saying tt actualli come out already..but she paiseh rite..so she say ah cannot...hahahahahha..we were like making the toilet turned upside down seh..juz becos of huda...then got this malay aunty ah..cleaner...she knows about huda ah..and she offered this bottle tt have been cut into half for using it as a "gayong"..hehe..huda keeps rejecting it ah..dun want all tt..cannot come out all tt..but then me n sharifah was like keep saying u can do it..push harder all those..hahaha..and at last she go inside again to try..hahahaha...and we kena chase out by the aunty so tt huda will have a piece of mind while doin it rather than hear us kecoh outside..hahahaha..ya..so wait for her outside the toilet..

after waiting for the arrival back of our dear huda..sha haf to go back already..b4 tt she haf to buy murtabak at zam zam there..near sultan mosque..ya..liza,sharifah n huda dun follow ah..there dunno go where ah..while me accompanied sha to go n buy..poor sha..she's having a bad tummy cramps ah...i understand the pain but i neva kena b4 ah..hehehe..so bought the murtabak then waited for 51 at the bus stop near the stamford skool...behind the bus stop was an arab cemetery ah..and its thursday nite..wat malay ppl were sayin..its "malam juma'at"...hehehe..kinda eerie lah..lucky got alot of ppl..so waited for 51 for such damn long...and at last came but then single deck and packed..idiot...sha was like tt already...and then packed some more...haiz~ so juz board it ah...howeva we manage to sit after a few stops ah...ya..send sha home..its late already..10pm..and she's sicked..so send her home and then took 72 home...reached home at 11pm and lucky my mom never say anything...hahaha..i tink she tired of me already ah..hehe..i was tinkin to go bugis and bought the shag bands...but upon reachin there..somebody dun let me buy it..hehehe..so i spent my 3 bucks on food..hahaha..well at last go there for no purpose ah...howeva manage to walk2 for awhile wif them...so sorry to sha ah..pull her go there for nothing..eventho i noe she got cramps...sorry sha dear...hehe..but then i have fun....hahahaha..i dunno y..mebbe juz goin out from this hse is a fun thing for me...enjoying..rather than rot at home...oh ya..today is my darling xuechun burfday..

HaPpY 18th BuRfDaY mY DarLiNg [X][c] !!

national day also coming up...can't wait to see the parade...eventho dun get the tix to go to stadium..but i can still watch it on TV..its onli tt the feelin is different..hehe..oh ya..since its like life is so bored rotting at home...i've joined this multiply.com thingy ah..some sort like frenster but then abit more good ah..here's my home page
http://fudgywudgy.multiply.com
hehe..do drop by there to say hi and add me to contact if u haf ya..hehe..those i've send invitation pls accept it..hehe..and also..i've surf all those sites like von dutch,adidas,converse,vans,osiris,quiksilver,fossils...those stuffs ah..i wish i can haf them...nice man..i loike~~ u can see those things i find nice at my second photosite...its

fuzzywuzzy junior

hehhe..realli nothing to do seh..ok lah..tink till here lah..its a long update niwae..take care all ya..adios~

2004-08-05T11:37:00.000+08:00

ok hi there guys..i am terribly sorry for not updating for quite some time..hehe..i dunno...busy i gez..or juz too tired to update..niwae i've change my skin back to the deejay...ya..i'm sick and tired wif wat ppl tag me...wateva it is..they all want to tink i act gothic or wat..is up to them lah..dun tell me tt..when i put up this deejay skin..ppl goin to tag me and say tt i act cool tryin to be a deejay...if eva i got tt kind of tag..i'm gonna shove their ass off seh..hahahaha...oooo..cruel~ ok ok..enuf bout skin all those..first of all real sorry to all for not updating ya..well not much of things happen this few days..oh ya..for your info,i'm on my block leave this week...ya..me,nadz,waa,wilin,willie and jeff...the other half is at skool doin some quotation of a tour packages for the NYP clubs...

ok,its block leave for me..but then..i still go to skool..hahaha..not everyday lah..hehe..well..i came on monday..cos need to pass my team mate the post mortem report...ya..so go to skool wif sha..and ya..all was like hey..i thot u block leave..hehehe...ya ya..i extra lah..as wat sha say...extra only..come to skool...ok lah...its fun goin to skool u noe..i'm dying seh if stay at home one whole day...now i appreciate skool alot seh...i dun mind ah waking up so early...use to it already i tink...but then...seeing my frenz in skool...make my day lah..those smiley faces of them...hehehe...rather than sitting at home rotting all the way..haiz~ serious..i can't live without them...kherkherkher...well on monday i went to skool rite..so on tuesday..i sit at home all day..only in the evening i went to my aunt house to teach tuition...boring seh..then yesterday SBM club got organise this NDP observance celebration at sports hall ah...its kinda compulsory ah for all SBM students....colin ask me to become the crowd control..ya..he need OGLs ah..so me,sha,nadz,sity,yana,amanda,andi,ghee seng and some others lah become the crowd control...kinda lame..but then its like for fun and larfter lah...well..something i wish not to be seen is there ah...i'm shocked..but then who cares...i dunno who the hell he is...howeva he change..dyed hair all those..ya..tts all i wanna say..nothing more...oklah..mar2 n sha was like..its ok lah fida..cheer up lah..i was like..hey..i am cheering up..who say i'm sad or still tink bout him...never...hehe..well thanx aniwae to mar2 for tagging..hehe..and sha to..for concerning...trust me lah..he's out of my life..hehe..ok ok..so first of all they had this auction thingy ah..kinda fun lah..wif them bidding all those...then its line dance session..kinda lame...by tt time half of the crowd already left seh..its so stupid lah...teachin the step and expect ppl to see...well..too bad lah..its not tt successful..cos after the line dance..ms gina weers say to wrap up everything ah...no motivation already seeing everybody leaving...actually got alot more activities ah..so wrap up everything and ya..we went home...not home actualli..hehe..me,sha,nadz,mina n erwin went to sit at McD..mina n erwin want to eat their lunch..ya then after while nadz went off..meeting somebody..after tt me n sha bought stuff from gecko to eat...then we went off..left mina n win...sha accompany me to hg mall popular..me buying my cuzzin assessment book..then went to eat dessert...eat red ruby..hahaha..i duno..it all started from waa...red ruby is an in thing now..hahahah..

ok ok..as for today..goin to meet the CRMCC girls..hehe..sharina,sharifah n liza at YCK interchange after their "work"..hehe..then goin to head off to bugis..waa will be meeting at bugis...nadz can't come along..well..intending to buy the shag bands..hope i find it...as for tmrw..haiz~ gonna stay at home again..sucks lah..boring seh..haiz~ its ok lah...after national day i'll be goin back to skool...but rite..haiz~ later huda,ada,amanda all those dun haf..its their turn to go for a block leave...aiyah...hope not tt boring lah..hehehe..well guys..think till here lah..update you all some other time ya..take care all..miss ya~

2004-08-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

SORRY I DON'T UPDATE FOR A LONG TIME....hehe..WILL UPDATE SOON!! take care all...till here...miss ya all.. -muackz-

2004-07-24T15:29:00.000+08:00

hi there peepz...ya its saturday..i'm GLAD cos today its my leave for the TEP..ya..each of us is given a 2 choice of saturday to take leave..ya..my first one will be today..and the next one will be on 7th August..howeva..we also got block leave..its one whole week no need to come to skool..isn't tt great..hehe..mine will be the week starting 2nd-6th August..and therefore i took the 7th Aug altogether..wow...long break seh..from 2nd-7th..then sunday on the 8th..then monday on the 9th public holz....nice huh..

ok talking bout break..i felt tt i need some of it...i dunno..my mind is in a mess rite now..i felt like juz want to jump down or juz slash myself up or wat...ya rite..its gruesome..i mean..its nonsense,stupid,crazy thing to do...but then..how m i goin to overcome it..ergh! i hate to feel like this..i've made the biggest mistake eva..i dunno..juz felt tt i'm one lunatic..psychotic..idiotic..all those -tic lah..haiz~~ i dunno lah..how i wish tis neva happen..all normal..haiz~~ how i wish..well i dun want to talk much bout it..aniwae mebbe goin for a holz wif my whole pham of my mom side on the 7th August..ya..b4 national day..i gez tts a gd idea...for me to relax my mind...amend my mistakes..change for the best of somebody..ya..so i'm sorry to waa all those if u guys are planning something...u guys juz go ahead and haf fun ya...some other times mebbe i join...i thot not to follow my pham..but then..after things like this happen..i realised i need a break..somewhere out of singapore to do some soul searching mebbe...my apology if i can't go for any planned outing ya guys..well..i gez i haf nothing much to say animore...juz my last sorry for tt somebody and take care..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

well..long time huh neva update..busy i gez..aniwae not much to update lah..juz not much thing happen in my life this past few days..oklah let me update u all starting on monday ok..

hmmm..been excused from TEP from monday till wednesday..cos got rehearsals for the orientation 2004 finale which is on wednesday,21st july...ok so on monday thinking tt we've been excused for TEP till 6..but then..after went there for the rehearsal..since me not performing, fast game onli...so b4 5.30pm finish already..while the rest performing need to stay...well thinkin not to go back to TEP..but then..nothing to do so oklah..me n sha went back to our stop-overs..aniwae me also got alot of stuff to be done...as me having an upcoming event..the Travel Connect Fair..The Travel Connect(TTC) is a travel agency in NYP...its juz a branch of GBC Pte Ltd..ya..so since me in the R&D for tt travel connect..me quite busy preparing and organizing tt thing ah..so after tt went back wif sha onli..cos nadz got floorball and waa need to rush and meet her bear already..ya so waited for sha outside her stop-over,thinking to go hougang mall, and she came out saying tt sharifah is following us..i was like..WAT? hahaha..dun want lah..for wat seh..hehe..niwae sharifah is a new fren i've known..i dunno whether i got tell u all or not..howeva its ok then..ya..so she did follow ah..cos she want to meet her boyfren too at there..so took 72 there..and this sharifah eh..ergh..noisy sia..hahahah...non stop chatting all the way seh..and u noe wat...girls like her..have to stay inside the toilet for 20 mins. juz to get ready..to make up all those..haiz~~ problematic ah all this girls...hahahahaha..well cannot deny it lah..pretty lady of cos have to stay long long in there...touch up on their face... ;) k k..so after tt me thot of goin to Giordano and see the sweater..so she also followed since her guy haven come yet..then try2 all tt..and go watson..then her guy came..niwae saw her guy already in frenster..but then this one in person..hahaha..so handsome..hehe..oh ya..while goin down to level 1..we took lift..hahahha..and u noe wat...sharifah was like acting wonder woman like tt go stop the lift door and let her body get squashed thinkin tt the door will auto open back...hahaha..funny seh..the way she got stuck..sha was like larfing hard already..hehe.."so smart" ah she..hahahaha..k k..after she go meet her guy..me n sha went to KFC to eat..ordered popcorn chicken meal with cheese fries and then buy wedges..sha ate all potato..dunno y she ate potato onli for tt day..hehehe..so after tt walk back to sha's house..and me then took 72 home..

as for tuesday..we were excused for TEP from 2-6pm for the rehearsal..but then since ya..we are not performing..juz rehearse the certificate presentation part onli...also finish fast ah..then thot to go back to my stop-over...but then sha dun feel like goin back ah...she want to go some where..and ya..me also "something crops out"..hahaha..so told my team mates tt i can't get back to the stop-over and then go off wif sha...so go town and eat then go eat ice cream and went back home taking 132...dun go for my tuition cos lazy..tired niwae..aniwae this day is special to me..20/07/2004...rite sha..hahahaha..ok..i'm crazy already..k k..as for wednesday, its the actual event..so were excused from TEP the whole day..sign in at 8.30..and by 9am we haf to go for the full dress rehearsal all those..ya..rehearse all those and were kindda bored..sleepy seh..sit there doin nothing..but ok lah..watchin the performance from stage art all those..nice ah..hehehe..then we were given break..and ya food is provided...but i dun eat ah..cos not hungry..morning i ate already..then the event start..oklah..those freshies coming and some seniors too...quite full ah..bout 90% full? ya arnd there ah..well the class tt me and sha took care of came...and ya was happy to see them..hehehe..howeva i'm not loved by them lah..they prefer sha i gez..hahaha..well cos mebbe i'm strict ah.. ;) hahaha..k k then when comes to certificate presentation..and my name was called up..they shout for me...and the guest tt given out the cert. was saying to me tt wah..so popular huh...congrats..ahahaha..like real..niwae sha behind me..and when sha's name being called out...they were shouting more..saying GO! Sharina!..hehe..woo~~ great..hehe..k k..then watch the whole thing..and got surprise item where the lecturers dance..hahahaha..and gez wat..DR. BADRI was in there...hahahaha...MR. PATRICK CHIN too..wahakhakhkha..funny sia..they dance..so cute...my DEAR DR. BADRI ah...was so cute sia..hahahahaha...we were larfing and shouting wooo~~ all the way for them..nice ah..got talent also..hahahaha..Ms Diana Tan also dance..yup..Dr. bad was my PEM last year..and thot me stats and microecons..as for Mr. Pat Chin was my lecturer for macroecons last yr..and Ms Diana Tan was my lecturer for principle of mgmt last yr too..well after tt all the OGLs..have to go on stage for the "grand" finale...hehe..we will all go up on stage to sing along wif sunny..shuyi..singing "HOME"...ya..so were swaying our body..our hands..nice ah..hehehe..and balloons were falling down too..but then the way the balloon falls was funny..and me were larfin wif sammy..seeing the way how the balloon falls..ppl throw from upstair one..hahaha..not professional sia..hahaha..k k..after everything ends..got refreshment..met my freshies..lauretta..sheena n frenz..haresh..ya..then azrin came to us..saying congrats..ya all those thingy lah..and we ate..ok lah..nice..but dun haf otah2 ah..if got otah2..fuh..i take the whole tray..hehe..so after tt neva go back to my stop-over ah...cos like 5+ already..so juz wait for waa to sign out and then go home took 72..

as for today..well..got alot of things to settle already..so ya..design alot of things..the biz card all those...set up a sample for our "resort bedroom styled" booth...quite ok ah...creative tho..hehe...oh ya..me n my team mates go sneak into IT skool to use their computer..hahaha..cos we are doing our poster..and at there got photoshop v.7...while SBM onli v.4...ya..hehe..k lah..other than tt..we larf2 like nobody business when all gather in the room...hehe..well..who else doin the entertainment...of cos our dear wilin and jeffrey...non stop wif their nonsense things to say..hahhaha..fun lah they all...as for today..well went back on my own..sha's bro picking her up..and ya..not enuff space for me..cos fardillah is waiting for us outside already..thinking tt me,nadz and fardillah to take bus home but since sha's bro insist on nadz to get in the car..so ok lah..fardillah,nadz n sha on the back seat..while sha's bro's fren on the front seat...well..its ok lah..i'm goin to go teach tuition niwae...so took 72 lah..well after sitting in the bus..me was like worn out seh..so called my aunt saying tt i can't come..got alot of things to settle wif my project..and ya..she's ok wif it..so ya..went back home ah..well tts wat happen for the past few days..niwae to sha..i'm truly sorry..pls forgive me..and smile always..well..think till here alrite..update u all some other time..take care..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-17T01:45:00.000+08:00

It's hard loving someone who doesn't love you, but it's even harder watching the person you love, love someone else...

well, its a quite famous quote...i'm feeling it rite now..i noe tt i'm being stupid but everytime things like this happen i will go berserk and my mood will juz turn off and then tears started to well up...a few minutes after tt,memories will start to appear in this bloody shit head of mine...this is the 2nd round for me to feel like this..why is this so? i myself can't figure out...issit me being too emotional? or am i juz so damn stupid to still feel all this fucking feelings...haiz~~ sorry bout all those words coming out from me..aniwae how i wish i could turn back the time to 3 yrs ago..and make clear to myself not to have a crush on tt somebody..mebbe this is wat God have written in the book of my life..to give me chance for having my dream came true for a very short while and then let it crashed and crashed and crashed alots alots of time after that...well its called fate..'takdir' in malay..this is my fate..God gives me this kindda fate..i can't disobey it..its God's writings..but ya..i juz haf to bersyukur..Alhamdulillah wif wat God have written in my life book...

i noe tt somebody will read my blog...but then..now i dunno whether he still read it or not..well..who knows..busy wif skool..frenz..and ya..dun forget.."NEW" girl...haiz~ alot of commitment ya i gez...aniwae i'm not putting it as if i'm controlling him..and cannot let him find other girls..its juz tt i'm being disappointed..hurt..howeva i'm still a nobody why the hell i need to feel all tt..its no use...BUT how hard i tried to forget him..memories will always came back..aniwae i have no more mood to talk bout tis matter..i tink i'll better update bout today..well..as per normal go to skool at 8am..cos today got review lesson..so then do project..and ya after nothing to do..we were playing wif the balloon which they found and blow it..then suddenly..our supervisor's head sticks out frm behind the whiteboard..she came in from the connection door...and asking us wat we were doin..quite shock..as she said tt this is the last time..cos if the second time it wil be a warning letter...ahhh..wateva lah wif all this..ok ok..then after skool..me,sha,waa and our new friend or classmate wannabe for sha n waa..its liza..hehehe..well can get along wif her quite well lah..she's fun to be with i tink..and waa found her new best friend..cedebah..hahahaha..ok ok..so the 4 of us go orchard window shopping..nadz dun follow cos got to get home or wat ah...ok lah go eat at the $2 foodcourt at Lucky Plaza there first..me ate carrot cake..then after tt, we go wisma..MNG SALE..70%..tts cheap man...hehehe..so walk2 see the xcessories and then head to taka..while walking2 at taka there...sha have to go home..and so..me decided to accompany her home...hehehe...so left waa n liza...dating ah..hehehe...ok lah..walk to the far east plaza there to take 132..then send sha home first..something tragic happen in the bus..hahahaha..still can't get it out of my mind...hehe..first time i saw sha shiver of coldness...those jittering and trembling of body...hehehe..still dunno y she suddenly felt cold till like tt...aniwae hope she's fine..so reach home at 10.45 like tt..and straight away went online...now i'm getting sleepy already...tmrw still haf to go skool...SUXXXX seh..saturday is not my skool day man..i want 5 days onli lah...saturday also need to wake up at 6 also..aiyah..stress sia..hehehe..ok lah..since like tt ah..i better make a move first ah..update u all some other time..take care all..adios~

HaPpY BeLaTeD B'dAe to DiBz...

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

wow..today super sleepy seh..now my eyes like very heavy already..then still got minutes to do..haiz~ super tired seh..came back from tuition near to 10 then go wash up and sit down infront of this comp. i need to do the letter...but then..i dun receive the email my team mate send juz now..so cannot do..dunno how..then tmrw morning need to get ready all...while me still haf to go for review lesson at 8am at LTD-4...tiring rite..haiz~ wat to do...this is work life..its boring..everyday life like this..but then lucky the ppl there was alrite..aniwae i juz finish talkin to my BELOVED teacher or so called "friend" hehehe..ya..its mdm chua..aka kak aishah..hehehe...well talk to her on the phone..quite long..hahaha...talk nonsense lah..talk bout skool life..talk bout guys..hahaha..first time i hear she larf like nobody business after so long never see her...miss her truly madly deeply...hehe..she miss me too..awww..she's sweet lah...aniwae thinking of goin to her concert this sunday at s'pore conference hall..well its the mayflower sec band...so after talkin nonsense..she got 2nd line..so finish our larf and we put down..well i tink till here lah..gonna start on my letters and minutes..see ah if i can finish...if too sleepy..i tink the minutes do tmrw ah..hehehe..aniwae toaday..15th july..quite memorable..or some sort like meant alot to me...too special..aniwae hope everybody is fine lah..insyaAllah...alhamdulillah everything ok ah...hehhe..k lah..stop here ya..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

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get this quizzes from waa's blog..nothing better to do..aniwae i was so damn frustrated seh..with some IDIOTIC "UNTITLED" SOUL tag at board saying tt me no need to step gothic girl lah..like wat the fuck sia...HELLOOO~~~ get this clear lah..having this kind of blog doesn't always have to be GOTHIC...i dun give a damn wif all this concept2 thingy lah..no time for all this..its juz goes wif wat i find interesting or cool only..can always not follow our concept wat...then like tt kids have to choose kid's design onli ah..all those cartoon ah..cannot choose other things..haiz~strange strange..well..the world is free from doing anything aniwae..i'm free to choose or do my blog like this..i juz dunno why ppl discriminate things like this..sad..sad..wat the world have become man..haiz~~ aniwae..i also in the process of changing my skin..so to tt "UNTITLED" MORON don't worry...the gothic world is ALL YOURS NOW!! amikkk kauuu!!! tk heran ah!!

k k..stop all those cursing hehe..wateva it is, i'm cool..chill as ever..no time to entertain all this nonsensical..so childish..well..today was quite busy cos have to amend our proposal..and my team consist of joanne,amanda n jeff haf to go Ang Mo Kio central there to survey prices. So went there taking 159..go to the sembawang bookshop..and survey our budget..after all those we head to MOS Burger to haf our lunch..jeff go back skool first..as for me..ya i noe..its not Halal..haiz~~ but they want to eat there..so wateva lah rite..i no mood already..so juz eat lah...well tt will be my last time eating non-halal food...hehe..dun worry..to sharina especially..i promise alrite...i make my vow online..that that will be my last time..ok ok i noe let me take the tanggung at akhirat later..as for now, i'm goin to do the draft of the letter to fax to supplier..oh ya..did i told u guys tt wada rebond her hair?? hehehe..well ya..its nice ah..wateva she do..cos aiyah..pretty wat..all nice one..looks natural..no wonder tt kind of price..hehehe..but i still prefer her wavy hair..well..can't turn the porridge to rice back wat..hehehe..so ok lah..tink positive only ya sis..wateva it is..u look nice in every way u do to yourself..:P k lah..i tink till here lah..gonna run off to do the draft alrite..so take care all..adios~

p/s: THANKS ALOT "UNTITLED"..GOTHIC IS ALL YOURS!!! HAILLL GOTHIC~~ HAILLL "UNTITLED"~~
*done wif sarcasm*

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

! You are most like An Emerald !
Caring, giving, - and very emotional. You're the
person
people turn to with a problem. You worry about
everybody,
and genuinely want to help - a little too much
sometimes.
As an emerald, you tend to take a more backseat to
the other
gems, but your inner beauty soon captivates those
who take
the time to get to know you.
Congratulations ... You're the selfless gem
everybody needs as a friend.

?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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ok ok..once again..another one of those quizzes..adios then~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

well one week of TEP @ TPRD has elapsed..now its starting of the new week..6 more weeks to go for TPRD and 20 more weeks to go for TEP..haiz~ long way to go huh..howeva i started to miss my TPRD mates already mainly,huda aka freshie,joanne,amanda,wilin,willie,joleen,jeffrey,ada n the foreva MIA liang liang..hehe..its not tt i've forgotten my old frenz..but then..this new bunch of ppl i meet at TPRD is crazy and one of a hell nonsense ah..hahaha..it was fun lah...my days spent goin to skool everyday is enjoyable..but of cos lah..quite sux lah if got too much things to do or really2 damn nothing to do..aniwae everytime when we have nothing to do,we will gather at one table and chat all the way...talk nonsense..larf2 like idiotic..hahahha..funny ppl lah they all..well as for juz now,in the morning,we sit down one table and talk bout japanese culture..and learning some japanese language...hahaha..huda was like repeating with this sentence which we learn from joanne..it goes like..anatano singaporu jin deska? which is in english are you a singaporean?hahaha..weird rite..hehe..then the sentence to reply to tt question will be haik!watashiwa singaporu jin des...ya..so huda was like keep repeating tt thing lah...like excited like tt got to learn those few sentences...hehehe..but she's cute lah..neva thot tt i can be frenz wif her lah..i mean..talk to her..like we have known for 5 yrs or wat like tt..ya same as sharifah,since she also one of the 3 "pinkiez"..hehehe..she also i dun expect to be frenz wif ah..in talking terms i mean..howeva now all those ppl like liza,farhana,huda,sharifah,shafarina,all those ppl we thot differently are like started to be our alliance already..isn't tt great..and quite shocked lah..hehehe..amazingly we manage to click..thank goodness..hehehe

well..sorry for not updating since wednesday..quite busy wif project i gez..oklah..since today i'm quite free,let me update u all bout my days in TPRD..

alrite..everyday come to skool at 8.30..and went home at 5.30..ya tts the routine..only on friday me,nadz n waa..and those in TEAM B have to come at 8am..got lecture ah..once a week..ok then as for sat. it will be from 8.30 till 1pm...ok..so life hasn't been tt colorful..i mean..wat we do for the past 1 week is go to skool..then at 5.30..straight away go home..neva went out or stuff ah...so tinking to go out juz now..after discussing wif liza..one of the girl in CRMCC ah..but then..it seems tt the day sux..like mendak ah..rain all tt..so not tt great lah to go orchard..and so we cancel it..see lah mebbe tmrw..if they want to go tmrw then i haf to cancel my tuition lah like tt..hehehe..cos ya..for me..every tuesday n thursday,it will be a damn tiring n long day for me..cos after TEP..me have to go my aunt hse at pasir ris tt one to teach tuition..ya i still teach my kuzzins..so ok lah..nothing much happen last week..sunday also i neva go out cos like lazy ah..need to finish up my last bit of project which have to pass up today..ya so my parent only ah go my "nokia" aunt hse..

aniwae today is my dad's 51st b'dae..old huh..hahahaha..but he really doesn't look like..wif his red sexy CBR900 and his black leather jacket whenever he rides it..seems like he's 38? 40? hehehe..but then..when open helmet..all those white hair beneath the helmet exposed already...hahahha..ok lah..hope he live long wif prosperity and healthy life foreva..dunno wat to get for him..but tt one later can tink lah..hehe..as for now,i'm tinking bout dibz..ya..dibz b'dae is coming up too..next two days..14th july..well..goin to discuss wif nadz all tt lah..hehehe..ok today still same..go to skool..slack all the way..hehe..buy lots of tidbits today..we like picnic like tt..hahaha..then today also me lots of walking arnd the skool ah..go meet ppl to sell bks lah..go 5th level access lab lah..go arcade for like umpteen times..hehehe...go up..go down..aiyah..everywhere lah..cos my team have to do proposal to mr sash our "dear" Deputy director of School of Business..ya..its for The Travel Connect(TTC) 2nd anniversary at the end of july..well my team 1 is incharge for it lah..so have to prepare some stuff and do some events mgmt thingy lah..hehe..like real only..hahaha..but hope it turns out well lah..for those NYPians..pls pls support this event ya..will appreciate it alots alots..*grinz*..oh ya..i've made wada a blog already..well great..all got blogspot now..hehe..well when is fadila's turn..aniwae haven heard from her for quite some time..hope she's doin fine..hehe..k lah..i tink till here lah..mebbe goin to change my layout soon..currently hunting for a new one..*winkz* so take care ya all...adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

shocked.unbelievable.sad.wateva.haiz.

tts all for today.its over.not my day.juz not my day.

::the demon have no mood today::

2004-07-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! tmrw open skooollllll....shittt...hahahaha...k k i'm excited cos wah..2nd yr already..hehehe..but then..i'm quite nervous too..hehehe...like so fast seh..hehehe...then later without knowing..i'm goin to be in 3rd yr already...hehehe..k lah..tmrw will start my skool day..my TEP..haiz~~~ my life will be gone..hahaahaha..nah..hope not tt bad lah kan...k lah i tink after today it will be quite difficult for me to update...see first ah...cos i'm gonna be one busy woman i tell ya..hehehe..monday till sat. goin to skool...8.30-5.30pm on weekdays..and 8.30-1pm on sat...then as for every tuesday n thursday..i'm having OT..hahaha..got to teach my 2 kuzzins tuition still..so after TEP..goin there lah..damn tired man..gosh..can i survive? can i cope? hahahaha...Insya'Allah...alrite..as for now..let me update ya bout my past days..

k on friday...hmmm me go bugis buy bag...so met sha after her TEP training..took 851 from YCK and go bugis..at there..met waa...ya..so find myself a bag..hahahha..thot to buy haversack..this checkered one..nice..but then..thinkin twice..it doesn't suit me i gez..then sha wants to buy this small sling bag..and it cos 22 bucks..since tt uncle noe me..hehehe..i asked him for disc. sayin tt i will buy another bag ah...then he gave sha 18 bucks ah...but then..after thinkin2 and also i got saw this sling bag at one of the shop...at last i go bring waa and show her the sling bag ah...and say to the uncle later i come again...hahahahaha...then when i see the sling bag tt one..its big lah..tts wat sha n waa say...squarish..zinc brand..but nice..its leather..its nice ah...i juz fell in lup when the first time i saw..hahahaha..so ok lah..after wearing it..it doesn't seem tt big lah kan..so ok lah..cost 35 bucks..then bargain..the guy gave me 30 bucks..oklah..i'm fine wif it...hehehhe..howeva after tt..i felt so so guilty..hahahaha..cos the uncle gave sha the disc. already..and at last i cheated him...hahahahaha...not cheated lah..so bad seh the term..but then..how seh..i dun tink so it suits me lah haversack..hehe..sori lah uncle..next time i got money i go buy the small sling bag which i aim already...for me to put my discman all tt when i go out..i mean..tkkan lah nk bawak beg besar2 aku ni..hehehe..k k..i promise ah uncle..aku niat ni..aku niat..hehehe..later got money goin to buy 1 bag from him...alrite2..so after tt go eat at BK..ya...then waa wants to go geylang to buy her scarfs and brooch..ya so me n sha accompany her lah..but b4 tt sha's mom wants zam2 murtabak..ya so go buy her one then took 51 to geylang..

the bus was full..and ya..while we were standing..i beat waa so hard till infront of us got this grandpa..like mahatma gandhi...hehehehe..he was so cute..cos when i beat waa hard..his face was so shocked..and then i put my thumbs up infront of him..hahahahaha..me,sha n waa cannot tahan already...keep larfing..cute seh...his expression..k k..then drop at geylang go find tudung..at tt aunty nye shop waa was like tinking nye tinking color ape all those..and the makcik was so gewrek..hahahaha...rawk ah makcik..menjadi2 jugak layan kita ni..ya then after tt go mac at panggung singapura there..cos waa waiting for her "bear"...hehehe..ya so talk2 there..saw alias kadir n famili...hehehe..then edi also came and me n sha went off...then sha's dad lak mengidam yong tau foo...cute ah her famili...hehehe...ya so walked to haig rd there n bought him one...then go back took 51 to hougang...accompany sha home cos like mcm2 gitu dia kena bawak..in the bus..makcik tu slept soundly..heehee...ayu gitu dia tido..and ya lah..then go back lah took 72..then..haiz~ my mind seems mixed up..so as usual..go down some where near my area n walked2...sat under the block near fadil's there..and juz hang arnd while drinkin coke which i bought at one of the minimart..ya..then at 9 i tink..i dun keep track of the time..hehehe..i went home..ok tts for friday..as for sat. which is yesterday..my cutest n beautiful niece burstday..hehehe..2 yrs old already...da besar anak makkk...hehehe

k so the party held at my kakak sedara hse at punggol there..it starts at nite..ya saleha,one of my kakak sedara pick me,mom n dad up wif her fren,khalid,van...ya so reach there and was quite shock cos ingatkan buat dlm umah..but then..they having BBQ...hehehe..at the park..fun..hehehe..cos nowadays they build the multi storey carpark got park one on the top floor..and then it is connected to the HDB blocks..ya so its on 4th floor..and my kakak sedara's hse was also on 4th floor..so kluar jer the park ah..best eh..hehehe..ya so they set up the fire all those...and kita apelagi dtg jer da start da...org lom ramai pon kita da sebat da...hehehe..got satay..otah2..wings..hotdogs..udang..fuh..mcm2..nasi briyani..mee...full seh..so me help bakar-ing too..and be a part time waitress too...hehehe..tkpelah...dpt pahala..amin~ k k..after dump all those yummy food rilek2 wif my kuzzins...then bring out the cake...took pictures..cut cake all tt..then eat cake lak..the cake from angie the choice..teringat aku sha's pe b'dae..hehehe...but this time its blueberry cake ah..which looks like a little girl face ah..cute..but i dun like blueberry ah..klu choc. ok jugak..hehe..ya then..bout 11pm like tt my kakak sedara,saleha,tt one also send me,mom n dad home wif the van again..as for today..me stay at home..cos tmrw start skool already..i scream juz now....saying tt oh noooo...tmrw..open skoooolllll...arghhh~~ hehehe..i noe..crazy..tts wat my mom called me...shit lah..cannot see final seh...arghhh..dun care ah..i tink i'm goin to watch..hehehe..hope greece win..but its portugal home..so..i bet its the portugal..howeva expect the unexpected...greece haf won 2-1 to portugal when the opening match..hehehe..cool ah..they played for opening match..and they also close the ceremony...hehehe..k lah..tink till here lah..update u all other times...insya'Allah..dun miss me ah..hahahaha..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-07-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

well its starting of the month,JULY,already..hmmm..a new month a new beginning? a new year in poly too..hehehe..haiz~ open shut open shut we are in year 2 already..senior seh..kherkherkher..aiyah..year 2 only but then still behaving like little kids..haha..wats new..fida per..still young per..hahaha..wateva lah kan..k k let me update bout 30th JUNE alrite..hehehe..as u all noe..its sha's b'dae..and we also got TEP orientation..

ya so meet nadz at bout 10.45 like tt at interchange..we go TM first..nadz haven bought her present yet..so hunt for it lah..go to perlini's silver and search2..then i saw tis bracelet wif starfish arnd it ah..dangling..hmmm..looks sweet ah..hehehe..but dunno whether sha like it or not..hehehe..so nadz also find its sweet..so oklah..bought it..then look at the time and its still early..cos we'll be meeting waa all those at YCK interchange at 12.45 like tt..ya..so walk2 wif nadz arnd TM tt half open..not much shop has open..hehe..cos still early..but ya..go converse all those..look at the shoes..bags..go sportlinks..and ya..go giordano and we saw this sweater..damn! its NICE..i want it..argghhhhh..shit...y..y am i not rich..hehehe..howeva syukur alhamdulillah lah eh..i believe tt there's more ppl more kekurangan lah..but then..haiz~~ nice sia the sweater..and i need one..those sweater wif zip..haiz~ nvm lah..insyaAllah one day i'll get it...k k..so after oggling at the sweater all those..then 11.30 like tt make a move and nadz go buy concession pass..ya then took 72 to YCK lah..hehe..met sha inside the bus..kekekeke..she wore kurta today..aiseyman...kurta seh..jambu gitu kan..:P k k..so reach YCK and onli ader win..mina already in skool ah..waa was late..ya..while waiting for waa..saw sharifah..hahaha...sharifah noor ain bte al-habshi..hahaha..she wore red too..hehe..sumpah tk janji..hehe..the nite b4..she told tt to tegor when nmpk..but then..hehehe..me wif my malu-ness...and she wif her rabun-ness..hahahhaha..we buat bodoh jer when she walk pass me..ok..am i the bad one..or she..hahahaha..ok me lah..me..hehe..but i'm too shy..ah wateva fida..she's a girl..not a boy..hahahaha..k k..so after waa came..we walk ah..but then..in the middle of the walkway..waited for wada lak..tt makcik eh..always seh..neva not late tau..hehehe..aniwae made her run..hehehe..so bad sia me today..and ya..miss her..hahahahha..her hair long already sia..da lah she go and wave perm it..hehehe..ceh..lawa lah tu..:P hehe..ok ok..so zoom to LTC 2..sign attendance and check where we got posted to..we got separated..but then...hehehe..i'm so lucky to be wif WAA n NADZ...ahhh...best..confirm tonggang terbalik itu bilik..hehehe..k k..we got into this TPRD..its Travel Product Research n Development..its like kinda work at the back end of the travel connect i tink..kinda boring ah..but then wif waa n nadz arnd..sure can one..hehehe..7 weeks wif them...oooo..hehehe..gonna be fun..oh ya..one of sharifah's frenz,nurul huda,is in there too..well ok lah tu..got 4 malays..out of tt 12..ehhehehe..k k..so after briefing at LTC..we go our designated place to report..then at last ask sha(our b'dae girl tu lah) to kirim salam kat sharifah..cos sha n mina same..got into CRCMM(call centre)..best kan..shit..oh ya..sharifah also got into there..well..sha told me tt sharifah was asking her where's fida..hahahahaha..awwww..i'm touched..she remember me...hehehe..then after the talk2 from our supervisor all those..then when go outside..eh..saw her outside too..waiting for huda i tink..hehehe..she was like squincing her eyes..to see me..then baru eehhh~~ hhaahahhaha..so sweet of her..ingat jugak eh..ingatkan lupa..nk buat bodoh lagik..hehehe..

k k..so oklah..after tt i'm planning for a surprise for sha..not me onli ah..inside the committee will be waa..nadz..win n mina..so make sha as clueless as possible for the surprise..and i ask win n mina to go orchard and buy the cake first..after briefing they all haf to zoom ah..and then kan..Allah..got to noe tt erwin's briefing finish late..oh gosh..i'm panic already seh..so ya..walk2 first ah..hehehehe..so ya..made the surprise for her at McCafe at shaw tower..its nothing actually...hope she like's it ah..i've done nothing much..hehe..k then took photo all those..then eat cake..then open present all those..then at 8+ we made a move..heehee..took 132 wif sha..and then at sha's hse there..took taxi wif nadz..she paid first..heheehe..oklah..so tired seh today..worn out..hehehe..lucky tmrw neva skool..hehehe..but then as for sha..win..mina..and sharifah..they all haf to go..cos call centres..MSC all those kena the handover training..lucky seh..hehehe..k lah..today got soccer..but me tired..how..hahahaha..try my best to watch lah eh..k lah..tink till here lah..update ya all other times..take care adios~

::the demon wish happy b'dae for the last time to sha and wave goodbye::

2004-06-30T02:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SHARINA!!!

LuV yA!!!

...fReNz TiLL eTeRnItY...

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

wallu wallu~ 3 days to opening of skool..haiz..i'm having mix feeling here..can't wait..but then like dun want to open skool also..ntah lah..hahaha..i can't wait cos i miss my frenz..miss them alots..hehehe..but then dun want to open skool cos i dun want to see somebody and afraid of TEP..hahahaha...confirm boring sak..all my leisure time will be GONE..5 mths of boredom..gosh..helllppppp!! hehe..k k..make sure i enjoy to the fullest this last 3 days...alrite today is sunday...tinkin to stay at home but then..last nite i asked my dad to temankan gi town today..cos dia ader transport per..hehehe..so tarik dia gi shaw towers nye Isetan to buy something for sha..hehe..surprise~ surprise~ ya..bought it and haf to wrap it using 2 wrapping papers..hahahaha..terok..first time beli prezen pakai 2 wrapping papers..hehe..ok so after bought it..thot to go and send it to her hse skali ah..cos damn big sia..hard to ride it wif bike..and ya my dad also agreed to it..hahaha..he's great today..agreed to all my kehendak..follow me everywhere..hehehe..nice~ well called sha then..to confirm whether she at home but then..she's not..so she said tt she'll be home by 4+..ya..so oklah..since we are hungry..we go and eat first..yeah..so vrooom to adam rd food centre..and ya..ate soup otak..hehehe..my dad ate the normal one..soup kambing..then at there met nek busu..my mother side nye family ah...so talk2..and then make a move after calling sha tt she's home..alrite she thot tt i came to meet her to take back my vcds..hahahaha...but then upon reaching downstair..terkejot sekejap eh..hahaha..SURPRISE! hehe..hope she like it lah..its nothing actualli...ya..so gave her an advance prezen..tinkin tt if i brought it to skool on wednesday..its goin to be so menyemak..hahaha..abe after the TEP nk gi jln2 lagik..do some shopping..ya..so gave her today lah..HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY SHARINA!!! kehrkehrkehrkehr...i felt so satisfied after buying her tt prezen...mcm puas gitu..hahaha..k lah..can't wait for wednesday..gonna meet them..miss my waa alots..hahaha..dia sorang lah yg da lama tk jumpa..hahahaha..k k..tink till here ya..adios!

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

What's your usual [mood]?

Which [Movie Genres] are you?

Is the glass half full or half empty?

Which [5 Elements] are you?

Which [Seven Dwarfs] are you?

Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?

Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

What [Cakes] are you?

Which [Diamond Shapes] are you?

Which [Mona Lisa Smile] characters are you?

What fruits are you?

Hahaha..me wif those quizzes again..alrite..gotta run..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

Evrywhere we go~(evrywhere we go)
Ppl want to kaypoh~(ppl want to kaypoh)
Who we are~(who we are)
Where we come from~(where we come from)
So we tell them!(so we tell them)
We are from A1!(we are from A1)
Super x2 A1!(super x2 A1)
Mighty x2 A1!(mighty x 2 A1)
1 n only A1!(1 n only A1)
GO........A1!!!

woooo~~~

Shake,shake,shake it out!
Shake the A1 spirit out!
Jump,jump,jump it out!
Jump the A1 spirit out!
Shout,shout,shout it out!
Shout the A1 spirit out!
O......A1!!!

YEAHHH~

We gonna F-F-I-I-G-H-T!!
We gonna S-S-C-C-O-R-E!!
We gonna FIGHT,SCORE,win TODAY!!
A1! A1! ALL THE WAY!!!

last but not least..

3 cheers AND 3 cheers AND 3 cheers for A1 and SONY!!!
Hip x2 Hooray!!!
Hip x2 Hooray!!!
Hip x2 Hooray!!!

SUPER SONY!! WONDERFUL A1!!! hehehe..well u guys sure pin some memories inside my heart..it was great being wif them for the 3 days..i enjoy it..first i was abit nervous having to take care of their class..but then..i gez its ok starting from day 2..S-O-N-Y,SONY is wat we are..S-U-PER,SUPER is wat we are..SONY2!!*clap clap*SUPER2!!*clap clap*SONY SUPER!!*clap clap*SUPER SONY!!*clap clap* chikala piah2 chikala piah2 SUA!

kherkherkehr..SONY was my designated class BM0402(BB)...they were great ppl..but then its juz tt sense of togetherness not there i gez..howeva they are some bunch of outgoin n sporting ones..PANASONIC which was taken of by Kenny n Andy..TOSHIBA is taken of by sherry and huimin and SAMSUNG is taken care of weiloon and chow in...we were combined and were form to A1..YEAHHH!! A1 rawks..hehehe..for the theatre performance yesterday..we have to perform something from each family and so from A1 family we choose 5 enthusiastic ppl from each class..and then they perform a dance from grease and from bring it on..hey mickey u're so fine..hehehe..cute man..nice! well we are not the best but then we got 2nd place..WOO~~~ tts was fine wif us..A2 gets the 1st place..ya..tts all..onli 2 places..as for the prize..i dunno..dun get to share it lah..but the girls in my class took it home ah..haahhaha..so bad..we dun share wif the others..hehe..ok..at 6.30 after distributing the dinner..we went to change shirt into black shirt cos we are the bouncers..hehehe..bouncers for the JAM n HOP at 7 later on...the rest of the OGLs tt were not bouncers were dancing like crazy down there at the atrium..it was an extravagant one..wif those smoke machine...laser beam..balloons...woofer all over..great man..me n sha haf to stand guard on one side of the walk way at 2nd level..and nadz,marmar n siti stand guard on the other end..quite tiring..but ok lah..nice..can see them dancing...and MINA n ERWIN when nite comes...HORNS started to come out..mak oi...sumer nye ternaik2...sluar baik2 panjang jadi 3/4..hehehe...amboiii~~ menjadi sak..ahahahahhaa...well i see tt they OGLs are having more fun and enjoying themselves than the freshies..hehehe..but of cos..their effort for the 3 days..and at last they too want to enjoy rite..hehe...overall it was a success this yr..rather than last yr..hehehe..great job my fellow OGLs...3 cheers for u all too..3 cheers AND 3 cheers tau..bukan 3 cheers 3 cheers 3 cheers..kherkehrkher..sorry sha..*buat muka kesian*

oklah so at 9.45 like tt we go home ah..the JAM n HOP finish at 10..but then we cannot tahan already so at 9.45 me,sha,nadz n siti went home..taking taxi..send sha home first..then nadz..last me..hehehe..totally worn out..so reach home and bathe..then went onli..chat wif nadz..for awhile but then ntah ape aku bebual pon i dunno...i tink melalut ah..cos can't take it..eyes da berat giler..so offline and went to sleep..early seh..hahhaha..then at 12+am like tt my hp rings..its wada i tink..hehehe..i juz pick up and say tt ah..ummm..k k..call me tmrw or something like tt ah..hahahaha..sorry to whoever it is ah..and ya..ENGLAND match also i dun get to watch sia..its last nite..at 2.35..shit man..thot was today but haiz~~ shit..now u see..ENGLAND lost becos i dun see the match..if i watch confirm win...HAHAHAHA..well its ok ENGLAND..u all try ur best..i heard from my dad our dear BECKHAM didn't score for the penalty...tsk tsk tsk..and james didn't perform well i tink..haiz~~ nvm lah..hehe..tonite is FRANCE match..i dunno whether want to watch or not..see first ah...as for now..i tink till here..update other time..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

oh gosh..i can't believe it..yesterday i slept at bout 4.30am like tt and haf to wake up at 5.30am..ya we,the OGLs,haf to reach skool at 7am..crazy sia..if not 7.30..this one bring forward..my goodness..where we stay sia..so tts y ken bangun very damn early..oh ya..me slept till 4.30 cos tt somebody call me..ahahahaha...and ya we chatted..then at last baru she let me go..hahahaha..idiots..:P oklah..yesterday was england's match wif croatia..tot want to watch..skali my dad dun want to watch..so i also decided nt to watch as i'm goin to wake up damn early..bu then..at last talk to tt somebody and she kindda become the commentator for the match..ya so she update me lah..well..i'm happy..haha..england WIN..4-2 man..hahahaha..best ah..aniwae tot tt england either draw or win 2-1..but hmmm..expect the unexpected..hehehe..ya so talk till 4+ then baru after tt tido..and then belom lagik panas bantal tu..ntah2 heard a voice callin my name to wake up..but me neva wake up..then after quite some time..the voice shout..hahaha..it was my mom..she shouted at me sayig tt its already 5.30..if not thinkin to wake up at 5.15..hehehe..ya so mcm bangun terkejot gitu..stretch2..and then headache start to invade my head..hehehe..then bathe fast game..but of cos lah properly lah..shampooed..soap all tt lah..hehehe..alrite suppose to meet nadz at interchange at 6..but at 6 then i came out..reach at bout 6.10..lucky not tt late la..mina was like kindda sesat..hahahaha..she from east coast ah..hehe..aniwae alhamdulillah..she finds her way tho..

well first day of orientation was ok tho..usher them in the auditorium and make them sit and mark attendance all tt..then do stupid childish game rayyan ask to..hehehe..after tt a talk frm our DSBM..*drumrolls* MR.SASHIMANI...ok..mingle wif my designated class..BM0402!! hehehe..they are ok..but then lack of togetherness and some sort enthusiasticness..hehehe..onli some jer la yg ok ah..leh talk out ah..but fun tho..i enjoyed leading their class...rite sha..rite..hahahahaha..*winkz alot alot at sha* hahahaha..sha managed to really be a diff. person..i mean..she open up herself ah today..kindda become extrovert like tt..shout here and there..wow..its sha's true color huh.. :P dunno tt the sharina tt one can realli shout out to those freshies mingle wif them..hehehe..job well done my dear!! aniwae eventho infront of the freshies ah..tt sha still want to bully me..hahahaha..but then i bully her first ah actualli...hehe..then she ah..go n pinch2 me..pain sia..if not pain neva mind seh..hehehe..diff. person lah..but then attitude still same..K14 foreva!! HAIL YEARGHH!! kehrekrhkehrkehr sorry sha..gurauan manja jer eh..hehe..k k..our lunch was provided surprisingly by McD..but then mak datok..lebih mulia beli meal seh..ni bagi burger...filet-o-fish tkde TARTAR sauce..like not cheese ke ape ke..mak oi..juz burger and the patty...tsk tsk tsk..UNSATISFIED...hahahaha..howeva who cares..we dun pay for it..

b4 lunch got some ice breaker games all tt..and quite lame ah..but then tts the way wat..ice breaker..always haf to be lame per..hehehe..gotta complain..not complain lah..but like some of them say ah..boring lah..lame ah..dunno lah..alot of things ah..want to go back lah..mcm2 seh..hehe..ok,after lunch we played the treasure hunt..kinna merepek jugak the treasure hunt..tk challenging langsung..hehehe..dorang jln jer..lenggang lenggok..tkde sense of urgency..but tt treasure hunt i tink mainly for us to introduce to them..tour wif them arnd the skool ah..ok we went to the library and lepak there for awhile..then bout 2.30 like tt baru do last clue for the treasure hunt and then they all haf to do jumping jack 3..where multiple of 3 u cannot say out..hehehe..kesian aku tgk dorang..tapi best gitu..hahahaha..k k..after tt we slack at sky garden..cos got alot of free time..ya then came sity..sity goin to be my classmate for 2nd yr..ya..she join in ah..goin to be one of the OGLs for BM0402 ah..best jugak ader ditu..bole buat keje pekik2 ni..hahahaha..k lah..then at 3 like tt we went to e-plaza for their virtual tour..we,OGLs,hang arnd there like goondu..nothing to do..heheheh..so after the whole thing go back to atrium for the debriefing..ya..b4 debrief..rayyan wif his cannot shut up mouth..ask to do chewy2 dance lah..mcm2 lah..da lah penat seh..hehehe..but i loiikkee~~ *chewy chewy chewy chewy oom pah pah..ai yai yai yai yai yai yai..la la la la..la la la la..la la la..la...hehehe..gile da dtg lah ni..da dtg da..hehehe

k lah after they all go back then,we,OGLs nye turn lak debrief..till 6+ like tt..and then go back..heheh..slept dgn burok nye in the bus..hahahaha..lucky neva drool..well hellooo..1 hr of sleeping jer per..and i still haf the energy to shout2 juz now..i tink today by 12 haf to sleep seh..cannot tahan any more lah..hehehe..my eyes like got glue seh..stuck one side already..very2 tiring..very2 sleepy sia..ehehehe...so tmrw haf to meet at 7am at skool some more..idiots...so early sia..haiz~ wateva lah...well tmrw haf to keep my energy for the games..games n games..hehehe..tmrw goin to haf lotsa activities..well..i tink till here lah..cannot tahan lah..need to go to sleep..hehehe..my eyes very heavy already lah..hehehe..k k..update other time ya..take care..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-21T02:45:00.000+08:00

wOoHoO!!! change to a new layout..kherkherkehr..more to gothic but some sort gothic tk menjadi..hehehe..aniwae this skin is kindda simple..and ya..i loikkeee~ the song..soooo..eeerriieee~~ mUaHahAhAhAhA *evils larf* well its a track frm the movie "The Exorcist"..i get it the links from leia a.k.a lady mephis blog..hehe..she's one of the dustaks nye member..ya one of my darlz waa sizzy...sorry ah if copyright eh..hahahaha..tapi mcm best gitu ah the song...so mcm bole naik bulu roma klu mlm2 dgr..hehehe..k lah...long time neva update ya..hehe..my comp. lah..dunno y..had to recover for bout 3 times sia tt day..still got virus..haiz~~~ and becomin worst n worst..then for the last time i recover..luckily better seh..if not..mcm nk hempas2 seh..hehehe..its very precious lah..but y seh..y lah give me headaches...

k lah gonna tell u all wat happen since last tuesday ya..ok nothing much happen..onli been sleeping late n late again..cos this time its EURO FEVER wat..hehehe..for sure matches like england,france,spain,portugal,holland,germany,italy must watch lah..hehehe..so ya..slept at bout 4-5++ everyday..onli the day before yesterday i slept quite early..at 2 like tt..hahaha..neva watch soccer ah..too tired..dunno y..mebbe go out all those lah..ok on tuesday ya..on the 15th..i accompanied sha to apply her FTT at the SSDC at Yio Chu Kang..then ya go eat at delifrance..wanted to try sangat the deli gratin..tinking tt its big ah..kinda big served ke eh..but then mak datok..the plate or is like so small seh..serving utk budak2 kecik..luckily i dun eat alot nowadays..hehe..ya so sha try the potati gratin n me try the pasta gratin..mine is much expensive..i also dunno y..haiz~ money..money..like water seh..easily dries up..hee! ok then on friday haf to go to skool..got meeting for us the OGLs for ORIENTATION 2004..we call ourselves the IGNITORS..hehe..dunno y..cos the OGL t-shirt we got got write IGNITIONS..hehehe..ya..sha n win also goin to join us..eventho they dun go for the camp..but then they still can join..cos not enuff OGLs..ya then for the partnering...me goin to partner wif sha..mina wif win..and nadz wif siti..siti is the girl from marketing..gotta noe her frm the sentosa urban challenge tt one..last time me,wada,marmar all those wif nadz sign up..hehe..ya..marmar kena wif shiwei n fadila gets to partner wif sam...to waa..i'm so sorry ya..dun inform u earlier..but then pikirkan..wif who seh u want to partner..so we also like kindda figure out dulu ah..aniwae for the JAM n HOP on the 3rd day..u come ok..kita JOGET SAMPAI PAGI..hahahha..goyang badan..goyang kaki..wooo~~ for the JAM n HOP..all student frm SBM_NYP can come and shake their ~~arses~~ till 10pm..from 7-10..ah kau..joget lah korang 3 jam sampai pinggang korang patah..hehehe..

i do felt nervous becoming this OGLs..i tink sha is the yg calm..at first she is the one yg takot lah..itulah..hehehe..but then i tink later on..i will be the one seh..well..hope everything goes fine lah kan..and do hope to haf fun too..oh ya..me n sha goin to be the OGLs of class BM0402-BB..hehehe..ya my class last time..but mine is BM0302 lah kan..hehehe..well hope our class is those not too introvert..and not too extrovert..realli want to make this time orientation a successful one..our t-shirt is grey color..its nice..but too plain lah..hehe..but its ok lah..sponsor lagipon..kehrkehrkehr..ok so for tt day sha and those who dun come for the camp haf to go to the adventure park for awhile..since sha alone..me n mina temankan..so ya get my blood donated to the mosquitoes there again..then after tt we went up and go to the tutorial room..for the sub comm. to show an example of a few games to be played during the orientation..first is the twisty..tt game was damn fun..i LOIIKKEEE~~*winkz to sha* hahahaha..its like the game twister lah where u haf to put ur hands..feets all those to the required place ah..but then for twister it uses color..this one numbers..hehehe..so there are like alot of position we are in..my position kinda worst..but not tt u noe...hahahaha..no like sha's position..sorry ya sha..hehehe..for the sake of fun n larfter onli ya..hehe..k k..so after tt go back lah..was so damn worn out..so go back and sleep..hehe..then later at nite baru bangun to watch soccer..then on saturday i met my pri. sch girls..ya the 6 girls tt i close wif during pri. sch years..hehe..me,huda,ita,nani,shahnaz n yanti..well we haf some mini picnic lah at pasir ris park..quite fun..wif them arnd..lotsa karutness started to crops up..hehehe..but then me dun feel like staying long ah..so told them tt i haf to go my uncle hse..but then i go n meet sha at tampines interchange..hehehe..ya..she want to hunt t-shirt for the orientation day..so met her and tour arnd the TM lah..apelagi..kherkehrkehr..ya at last find this black one at OP..nice ah...the back like pink2 like tt..saying OP GIRL..hehehe..nice..cheap also..after disc. its 15.90..i want to buy lah..but then haiz~~ later ah..haf cleverly tink bout how i shld spend my money..budget ah nowadays..hehe..k k..after hunting for clothes..go LJS..eat and then go back..as for today..i dun go out..sit at home all day finding my blog skin..hehehe..ya..tmrw gonna call some of the freshies again bout the orientation on tuesday..can't wait..hehehehe..k lah..tink till here ya..take care all..adios~

::the demon wave goodbye::

2004-06-14T04:45:00.000+08:00

DAMN!!! BLARDY JINX AH YOU HESKEY!!!! GO HOME N DIET YOURSELF FIRST OR WAT AH...balik kampong cangkul tanah suar ah..tanam jagung...rather than main bola jadi JINX...f**king jinx...eeeeeee...*slapping my head wif my hands* i was damn damn fuming up sia...it was a perfect match...the game goes on nicely...until he came in...and do his jinxness...go to hell lah wif u...argghhhh!!! nasib kau lah kan...my dad too bombarded him wif vulgarities...hahahaha...u deserved things like tt lah...well talkin bout failure juz now rite..ah ni ah EXAMPLE...failure..tapi si big black jinx ni bodoh..mmg bodoh or sengaja bodoh2..slalu buat mistakes..selalu tau..haiz~~tt means he doesn't learn from his failure..and wat the f**k..he dun even felt guilty or wat ke...he tinks like nothing happen like tt...not his fault like tt..wateva lah u biggy blacky jinxy heskey..well lucky its the tv i've thrown the cushion at..how i wish i can throw one big stone to him or mebbe juz bomb his head off or wat seh..well i noe its a game..ader yg menang and ader yg kalah..but it really goes on well tau...UNEXPECTED..last minute seh..those 3 minutes of extra timing..and the french can beat the english 2-1...my God..from 1-0...and things were goin smoothly..until mcm tu...haiz~~ totally disappointed ah...totally..howeva this is juz the first game..but france will haf the advantage ah..well i can't do anything bout it per..nangis airmata darah pon tk bole tukar the points...

this match is like kinda a tragic one or exciting one for me..for us..alot of us were waiting for this mighty match between the all stars france players and the england heroes...both are gd..howeva alot of ppl bet tt england can't win..either france or portugal to carry the championship title..well its still round 1..dunno yet wat will happen..but i do support england all the way lah kan...da lah..marah2 pon mcm lah itu heskey leh dgr..klu dia leh dgr tkpe jugak..tkde lah aku penat2 kan diri gi membebel..hehehe..aniwae watchin the match juz now..was more memekak than portugal and spain match yesterday..itu jer da memekak..apelagi ini tragic match...begegar satu rumah sak..hehehe..and at last my mom give up..hahaha..she went outside and throw us pillows to keep us shut..so can imagine ah..my living room da lah kecik..wif pillows all arnd..sampai kat depan pintu sumer..hahahahaha..total mess seh..wats more when the match turn to be an unexpected and chaotic one..lagi mcm typhoon melanda gitukan..hehehe..end of the game me n my dad was like bombarding vulgarities all over..and my mom came out again..look at the living room and goes "astargfirullahalazim...ya Allah..ape jadi ni..mcm tongkang pecah..pencuri masok ke..aku tk kesah eh..korang bapak ngan anak gi kemas ni sumer balik skrg jugak.." and my dad replied while he was shooting out all those !@#$% "Allah..bangun pulak mak buyong ni..jgn sebok ah..gi tido balik ah..org da fed up ni.." hahahaha..i was like.."wat? mak buyong?" and i look at my mom with she wearing kain batik and her blouse tucked in..i goes larfing like hell..kindda true lah kan..mcm mak buyong..hahahahaha...then without sigenal..she slam one hard bolster to my face...i can't stop larfing seh..and so she give up and go inside her room..aniwae tts for a short while..after seeing the playback of the goals all tt..i goes blasting off again..haiz~ sorry lah to all heskey's FAN..doesn't mean to despise him lah kan..cumer his attitude ah..his jinxness..i hate it ah..k lah..dun want to go on n on n on again...its 5.40..wat time will i sleep today? hmmm..nowadays everytime nite comes..i will ask to myself..wat time will i sleep today ya..hehehe..i myself dunno..juz follow wat the eyes do or heart says..hehehe..aniwae i'm having a split headache..wif me juz recovering frm blasting off..i tink till here onli ya..update ya all some other time..adios~

my motto:"sleep less,think more" *winkz*

2004-06-13T15:34:00.000+08:00

failure. wat is failure? some ppl thinks failure is when u haf a dream or aim to get something which in turn it did not turn out well..ur dream crashed or u dun get wat u want..ya..tts how failure always been said..howeva there are others dun tink failure onli like tt...do failure makes our morale lower? some do tink like tt..but some tink in a different way..they tink tt failure is for them to strive higher standard..work more harder..changing themselves for the better if they need to as not to be a failure again. there's many kind of failure in this world..fails to capture a loved one's heart..fails to make the loved one happy..fails to make family happy..fails in studies..fails to be wat they dream to be..fail.fail.fail. y must we let tt word,fail,overwhelmed us...it onli make us feels worst rite..haiz~ i see alot of ppl being a failure all tt..and they complain n complain bout their failure but then..they dun gif their best to strive harder or changed themselves all tt after they failed for the first time..mcm mane tk ader the second or third time nye failure..then when haf the second or third time nye failure...they will start blaming their fate..how unlucky they are..wat a stupid ass they are..and started to be pissed...wat the hell~ i hate all these bullshit sia..da pissed tu sudah lah..dun ever make others felt tt they are the one at fault..pantang sak..

well i see ppl wif their failures..and haiz~~ they dunno tt i also haf my own failures..mebbe more failure than those ppl out there..howeva i rather keep it to myself..and amend my own self or work more harder to strive for tt something than letting out the failures i haf to ppl..i dun blame fate or unlucky i am all those...but sometimes i am sad bout it..eventho i'm sad,i'm trying to see it in other ways tt the failure can be amend or avoid..different ppl different way they see bout failure i gez..but pls..to all my frenz..dun piss wif ur failure it mite be a blessing in disguise..if nk piss pon..jgn eva make others felt tt they are the one at fault..dun be selfish..tink bout the others too..be in their shoe rather than keep pissing off yourself..till here..adios~

quote of the day;"kerana pulot santan binasa,kerana mulot badan binasa"

*luv n peace*

2004-06-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

wat the hell..portugal lose to greece??!! erghh!! slenger bin bachin kan...malu sak home team..tsk tsk tsk...howeva greece deserve to get 2-1 lah kan..they play sungguh2 ah..run up n down defending and attacking...well..too bad for all the betters out there..alot of them bet tt portugal will win 2-0 wif greece..but then its like the other way round seh..hehehe..well..not ur luck i gez...tts y dun judge the book by its cover..jgn pikir dorang tu underdogs...but then they haf the strength mebbe or even strong azam to outplay the portugal..;) aniwae this is the first game onli..another 2 more games..the greeks mite lose to spain n russia which is also in TEAM A..so...mite not noe..howeva congrats greece..and ya..well done darling...hahahaaha..u scored the cenderahati goal for portugal for the very last minute..great finishing~ ;)hahaha..perasan lah fida ni..well..to u all my darling is christiano ronaldo..tt cute young guy tt manchester united juz bought..well quite some time bought lah kan..hehehe..niwae he's cute..and ya..as wat nadz say..rui jorge also cute la kan..hehehe..juz another portugal player..figo oklah..but old already...so nah..out..hahahaha..but he's still gd lah..

howeva talkin bout dun judge the book by its cover...i'm in a shocking state ah today..i dunno..really2 dunno tt glass kau sangkakan crystal..cedebah..ahahahha...nolah..sometime we mite tot tt wow..first impression tol tol nye impressive..but then rupa nye mcm gini...mcm..oh burung..baru pakcik tau..ekrhekrhkerh..haiz~~ i'm feeling mcm..sakit hati ah..mcm hampa seh..tk sangka gitu...eeeeee...tinkin bout it makes me mcm nk cekik2 ke...sepak2 ke..hahahahahaha..well as for now i gez juz let it rest ah...if eva one day things tt i dun wanna happen or noe..happen..i'll blast off seh..and gonna find the person till the worm hole seh..hehehe..worm hole like malay saying..sampai ke lubang cacing..kehrkehrkehr..:P ah..i dun want to talk bout it much ah..makes my mind more haywired..ergh~ wateva lah kan..aniwae ya haf not update my yesterday happenings..i mean on friday tu..ya..me go geylang actually..wif my aunts n mom..yup..walk2..eat2..all those..then can't sleep again..hahahaha..as usual..one of my "usual" sleepless nitez..but today i woke up quite late..at 1pm..hehehe..sleep at 6am can wake up at 11am..but then i slept at 5+ like tt..but then woke up at 1pm..shock ah..mebbe too tired ah..so juz extend sikit jer ah...terover sikit jer..ehhehehe..well today dun go out all tt..stay at home and spring cleaning my bedroom a.k.a pig sty or stable lah eh..sembarang ah tk cerewet..hehehe..k lah i tink till here lah eh..gonna catch my spain vs russia lak..start already ah..update u all tmrw or wat k...adios~ take care all..

|ku sangkakan crystal rupanye glass..glass murah made in china tuh~~ tsk tsk tsk..*peace*|

2004-06-11T03:14:00.000+08:00

haiz~ sleepless nite again i gez...hehehe..i dunno lah..but it seems tt i can't sleep like tt...dunno y n wat the hell i'm tinkin bout...wat i noe its tt my mind juz not in peace..tinkin bout alot of things...well..i'm a tinker wat...hehehe..ah..nvm..who cares bout me..tido ke..tk tido ke..tido mcm balak ke...sape kesah kan..hahaahhaha..k k..lets move on to my updates for today ya..

alrite actually tinking to cancel the outing tt sab plan..cos realli seh..tinking2 balik da kering sak..as wat amir n affan say...tgh musim kemarau..sebab asyik hujan jer kan...abis sumer air..da kemarau lak..hehehehe..;) but then at last jadi jugak lah..tapi hehehe..setotet jer..not a gathering..kinda normal outing..cos affan,amir,kel all tt..sumer buay ah..at last tk nk dtg...gi tgk wayang lah..kering lah..training lah..hehehe..nadz still sick pulak..kesian betol ah ditu..aahhahaha...so oklah..suppose to meet sab at 4.30 at small mac..but then..si pompuan tu kan..ntah mandi ke..buat toilet ke i also dunno..then buang air besar ke...taik mcm batu ke..ntah lah kan..waAllahualam bisawab..at last call me up at 5.20 gitu saying tt she'll be takin 29 and ask me to board it at my bus stop lah..mcm siak kan..hahahaha...janji melayu abis sak...haahahaha..k k..so meet up wif sab in the bus..and then make our way to city hall..cos sab craving for komalas at penin..and then she want to go esplanade to see sunset...hahahaha..but then tinking tt we met at 5.30..mcm..lupakan saja lah kan..hahahaha..so at penin then we met up wif nad..so eat at komalas..since me budget giler kan..me pon buy lah the kids meal...mini pooris..hahaha..the drink also "baby" coke sia..so cute..and ok lah..setakat alas perot..oklah..aniwae i ate at home already..ya..so after eating all tt..we walk to esplanade..ya and didn't go up lah..cos sun pon mcm da set gitu kan..hahaha..so go to the bus stop and took bus no. 77 to town..goin to CBTL at takashimaya a.k.a kakak si maya..hehehe..azmi lah..karotz..hehe..ya..meeting azmi there..cos he work there mah..he's like veteran already seh in this CBTL line...damn fast sia when he makes those drinks..impressive..hahahaha..and well..we get FREE drinks and cheesecake!!! WOOOO~~~ I LUP U AZMI..hahahaha..apelagi..when he ask nk air ape..BLACK FOREST for me please..hahahaha..sab drink the dulce de leche tt one..and nad..normal pure choc..and all he put whip cream..damn shiok ah...realli2 lup him..whakhakhakhakha...and then we sit down there waiting for him to haf his break..ya..so tgh tunggu2 tu..larf here n there..and then azmi gave us cheesecake pulak...YUMMEH BABY~~ hahahaha...sakit ah fida ni..hehehe..

ok ok after enjoyin the cheesecake..which sab is doin sound effect everytime the fork goes inside her mouth..oooo...aaaa..ummmm..mcm2 ah ditu..hahaha..wat she say was...cheesecake make her orgasms eh..something lah..mcm steam gitu..siak jer..hahahhaha..k k..after tt..fazdly pon came..with his shatec uniform...biase lah budak shatec ni kan..tk holz..kesian..hehehe..ya..so at 8.45 gitu azmi got break for short while..so we all go out the ngee ann city ah..dok kat yg steps2 depan ader air pancut tu..ya..sit down there..cos azmi n faz want to smoke..haiz~~ stress..stress..hahahaah..faz ask..but i put my heart at a strong stage avoiding it..juz becos of ... hehehehe..u shld noe ya when u read this..*winkz at tt somebody* if lah not becos of the person..da lama da..hahahahaha..i will not be quitting it i gez..but then i noe..it haf to be myself..not becos of a person..howeva..ya..its becos of a person lah..tt encourage me not to...ntah lah...ok ok...wateva...so after tt..dok2 bual2..talk nonsense..all those crapz till 9 azmi haf to go back to work..and left me,sab,nad n faz..ya we talk2 nonsense some more..till 9.45 like tt..and walk our way to somerset mrt station..and faz went off to took bus home..so took the train home..and something happen in the train which makes us..ESPECIALLY sab..goes YUCKS...F**KING..S**T all those u noe...hahahahahahaha...i was like..ergh!!! idiot sia all this man..hahahahaha...psychotic sia...eeeeeeeee....i dun wish to talk bout it here..it makes me..arghh~~~~ more can't sleep..haahahahha..well sab was strong..haahahahah..strong abis..hehehe..tapi betol lah..damn F**KING guy seh..haiz~ k k..so went back home took 29 wif sab..and ya..go online..till now...i dunno wat time will i sleep today seh..now its already 4.30..haiz~~ see first lah...5..5.30..6..hahahahaha..fida..fida..k k..dun worry..dun worry..i'll be juz fine lah..hehe..alrite lah..i tink gonna watch amazing race first or wat lah..hehehe..tgk lah if sleepy..then sleep lor..if mind say cannot sleep..cannot sleep lor..kerhkerhkerh..ah..its ok..k lah..catch u guys up some other time ya..adios~ take care allz~

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

-->fidz<--

2004-06-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

hi peepz..well the last entry was a poem..meant for somebody actually..*winkz* hehe..bout the fill in the blank tu tk yah tau lah eh..its for me to noe and for u to find out..hehe..well..aniwae..its nothing..juz me being too emotional...fida per..over emosi gitu lah..hehehe..wateva~ k k lemme tell ya bout the outing wif sha,waa n dilz yesterday k..

nadz can't come...she's sick..poor her..tu lah..gi mandi lagik swimming pool 24/7..hehehe..ok ok..so met them at hougang interchange and took 132 to far east plaza...a long ergh~ journey in the bus..and then reach at bout 4+..and teros gi KFC at far east first to eat...my stomache was gurgling like hell..hehehehe..k eat buddy meal wif waa..hahaha..we got HP..hahaha..so proud of our hp..hahaha..like small kids seh..hehe..ok ok..so eat the meal..larf like hell in the middle while eating all those...waa lah..buat lawak..hahahaha..but fun lah..nasib tk tercekik or wat lah kan..hehehe..k then after eating...walk our way to heeren lah..cos waa need to find wallet for her ~~ehem-ehem~~..hehe..ya so found the wallet at the wallet shop at heeren there...oklah..nice...sape pilih..FIDA jugak..wahkahakhkaha..yelah2..skrg fida pilih pon da tk lawa perr...kena DILZ perrr..kan sha kan..hahaha..*winkz* at sha...sorry waa darlz...:P k k..so after tt..walk arnd heeren lah..then willie yup my cute junior drum major of siglap band came to me..awwww..i miss him..hahahaaha..and i tickle his tummy lah..and sha n waa was like dunno lah...buah hati lama lah..ape ape an lah budak2 ni..hehehe..he's juz my junior..juz miss him lah..hehehe..k k..so walk2 then waa nak eat crepes..so go to level 5 issit..i dunno ah..wat level it is..and go buy crepes..waa n sha je eat crepes..while dilz eat the ice cream cone..while me..nah..me dun eat anything..its not tt i dun haf money or wat waa dear..dun worry ya..hehe..i'm juz not in the mood lah..tired mebbe..and sha keep saying tt me sad tk dpt eat crepes cos haf to pay for waa all those..hahahaha..jahat eh sha..sorry waa..doesn't mean to make u feel guilty or wat lah..i'm juz dunno lah..unexplainable mood at tt time..its ok..u all eat jer me happy..hehehe..ceh..sweet lah kirekan tu..hahahahha..wateva fida..

k then after eat crepes all tt..waa haf to go back ah..tk dpt go clarke quay CBTL to chill...so we walk our way back to far east to take 132 back home..me,sha n dilz took 132 n waa took i duno wat bus..107 issit? someting like tt lah..hehehe..ya..so dilz went down the same as us..at sha's bus stop and took 55 home..while me walk sha home and then go to the bus stop outside the market there to take 88 to pasir ris...me goin to shikin's hse to pass her a present..her b'dae present..hehehe..how sweet am i rite..send rite to the doorstep..hahahaha..masok bakol angkat sendiri sak..hehe..k k..so after tt go 7-11 at west plaza,bought slurpee..long time neva drink it..hehe..and took 81 back home...not home actualli..hehehe..kinda wondering arnd my area there first..

i drop 1 bus stop away frm my actual stop and walk home..then lingered arnd my area there..and sit down under one of the block..well i noe its quite late ah..bout 9:15 like tt..but i juz dun feel like goin home first...dunno y..hehehe..ya ok then forgot tt last nite got anugerah at 9:30..so like 9.40 like tt baru reach home...and quickly switch on my tv..hehehe..watch anugerah..but mata kemana..mind kemana..hahahaha..cos after the show my mom came to my room tellin me bout the contestant all those ah..but i dun catch up wif wat she's trying to say cos its like i dun quite remember which is which all those..hehehe..all i noe thaqif sang..haahahaha..and last2 eka mairina do her hip hop rnb liked song of hers...hehe..dunno lah..k k..after tt went online till hehehe..nvm..wat time i slept no need to noe lah kan..k then juz now woke up at 11:55..by my mom opera cina kindda voice..hahahaha..tinkin tt its still 7AM..hehehe..cos my room was damn dark...sebab raining heavily rupanye..kehrkehrkehr..then after tt my mom switch on the light and me was like wat the hell...and look at the time..gosh..its 5 min to 12..hahhahaha..nasib tk kena semboh ke ape seh my mom...so oklah..still felt sleepy...but then ape nk buat..my mom da pot pet pot pet..so juz woke up and freshen up myself..now i'm kindda havin a split headache from not been sleepin well this past few days..but not too split lah..hehehe..haiz~ life seems to fade away..as wat "his" nick says so...hehehe..k k..wateva...i dunno wat time will i sleep today..waAllahualam bisawab lah kan..hehehe..tmrw sab,mimi n nadirah plans to go out...but me kindda last minute fikir2 balik..tt tgh kering seh..hehee..ntah lah..can't make up my mind..see first lah eh..so tink till here ya..luv ya all..esp. you...take care..adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-06-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

must i _____ every night? haiz~~

Until You, Without You
by Lindsey

Always feeling alone, until you
I didn't love myself, until you
I didn't care about life, until you
I never held a friend's hand, until you
I never told a friend that I loved her, until you
No one had ever held me for no reason, until you
No one had ever truly known me, until you

Lying in the darkness, without you
I don't know who I am, without you
I don't know what to do with myself, without you
How did I ever get by, without you
How did I ever find comfort, without you
Would I have ever seen my true self, without you
Would I have ever known true friendship, without you

as i sit in silence.wondering why.till my tears run dry

2004-06-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

HALO THERE PEEPZ..hehe..WOWWEE~~ i LOVE it baby..whakhakhaha..alrite2..crazy me..crazy me..hehe..well sape yg tk happy...i've already recover my comp. and now its like super fast i tell ya..hehehe..so happy...but then cumer i see tt kadang2 giler2 jugak ah...cos i discover tt i got sasser worm..idiot rite..but now seems ok lah..da tk kluar lagik tt benda..cos my darlz waa..hehe..had teach me something already ah..well hope it stays like this foreva..hurhur..alrite2...since my comp alrite already so i can back to blogging already..wee~

k k..first of all lemme update bout this past few days ya..hmmm..where i stop ya..alrite..actualli nothing much happen lah..me neva go out at all..on sunday pon my parents..uncles..aunties all ajak me go one of my sedara kahwin kat daerah hougang pt there i neva go...i juz malas..hehehe..realli seh..no mood goin to all this wedding ceremony lah..aniwae i was lucky cos neva go..hahahaha..the food was horrible..whakhakahka..i mean not to the extend lah..but if u go also u all shock..my mom brought home some ah...and she told me lah wat happen there all tt..then i was like larfing and thank God i neva go..wear nice2 then go there and then eat those ergh~ and go back..gosh..lucky2..kehrkehkehr..oklah..at least got food lah but then its like helloo~~~~ org kahwin seh...u noe wat the food is..its buffet like ah..but then the food is onli nasi goreng yg tawar hebeh..putih gitu..then got kway teow goreng..mee kuning goreng..and then got fish balls and paru goreng...mak cow..the paru also onli paru gitu jer..buat lah sambal paru ke..terok sak..whakhakhakha..and all those..wif kendarats and washer and desks n tables sumer cost 8K..mak datok..buang duit tk berpatutan langsung..bagi aku lagi bagos seh..hahaaah..well i dun care lah kan..anak dia nk kahwin..hehehe..bukan aku..khakhakakha..ok tts for sunday lah..hahaha..which is yesterday..

as for today i went out wif sha..accompany her to pay her father's car at the sdl leasing..first of all met sha at tamp interchange and off we go to geylang to get the money from her dad and then we ate at haig road..me ate soup otak..ooo~~ yummeh..ahahha..well some ppl dun eat it lah..ehehe..as for me..lain dari yg lain..my uncle teach me bout all this..and now i lurve it..kehrkerkher..k sha ate mee kuah..and then after fast eating game then we walk to s'pore post there to take 70 to collyer quay..issit like tt the spelling? ntah lah..sembarang ah..tk cerewet..hahahaha..k so do the task all tt then went back took 70 to YCK..long damn journey i tell ya..out butt was getting cramp..and my pinggang can patah i tink..hehehe..felt restless abit after so long tk sampai2..ehhehe..nk tido tapi tk leh tido..hehe..ya so reach YCK thinkin tt sha can go and apply her FDT issit? i dunno lah F wat..haha..but then tk sempat..it close at 5pm..ya so juz went back home took 72 lah..and then reach home and here i am..now watchin harry potter and the sorcerer's stone part 2 on channel 5..well nobody is online..BORING NYERR...hehe..

ya tmrw we haf plans to do..will be goin to ECP for some kind of picnic lah..waa want to swim2 u noe..hehehe..do her whale stuff i gez..muahahaha...well i'm not goin to swim lah..play arnd wif the air sipi2 jer...hehehe..k lah..update ya all other time ya..take care peepz..adios~

i've found a reason for me||to change who i used to be||a reason to start over new||and the reason is you

2004-06-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

hey peepz..hi all..blardy hell shit seh..my comp is gettin worst to worrrsstttterrr...fcuking shit..i hate it lah...how sia..die sia like this...gonna send this to the NEC technical place ah...haiz~ tt means all my files and downloads application will haf to scrap..but then..got to save my photos first...howeva bout my songs...500++ songs i haf...idiot sia...all gone sia later...i dunn waannnnnttttt...argghhhh...but then how...howwww....arghhh...shit shit shit..y must this happen..got norton also no use sia...idiotic moronic bug!!! well since my comp like this already..i dun tink so goin to update my blog often..or neva at all for the time bein...haiz~~ gdbye for the time being lah kan...dun miss me..hehehe..howeva i'll be missing u guys..updating u guys...k lah..till here lah..i'm tired..kindda like everyday go out like tt..hehehe..k k..adios all...take care ya..miss ya blog...

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-06-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

hi peepz..well..not a great nite tonite..dunno whether i can sleep or not...my mind is at mess..argh! its ok..dun want to further details bout it niwae...niwae..thanx to those ppl for lending me ears...k lah..lets talk bout other things...ya..bout juz now..alrite..today is holiday..cos its Vesak Day..ya..so me n sha go coffee bean @ hougang pt juz now to help waa on comp. software..ya..poor sha..must be tired seh..hehehehe..ok ok not goin to put sha's name in every sentence again..hehehe..wateva lah kan sha eh...i'm tired niwae..k lah..sape makan chili dia yg terasa pedas nye..not tt i want to start a fight but then..u shld noe lah..juz to remind ah..be wise..tink b4 senang2 jer main hembos..alrite..k k..wateva it is..sorry b4 anything happen..

ok so chill at CB there..quite best ah..nice chill place..hehehe..so sit there..catch things up..help waa on comp software all those till 7.30..from 3..ya..hehehe..so after tt waa go home took bus while me n sha walk to sha's hse..well..she's the one yg nk jln..anjat jugak gegerl...hehehe..but then ok ah...not tt far..ya..so after walk sha's back home took 72 and went home...reach home..and nobody's in..then went online all tt..till now..as for tmrw..goin to sha's place..me n waa..dunno if nadz nk...ya..gonna chill at her place..oh ya..i've juz sign up this online album..cool u noe...get to noe it from dibz...well..as for now...onli FWISM albums..if u all wanna see it..u can happily go towww.fuzzywuzzy.photosite.com

well i noe its like my blog..but the its fuzzywuzzy...thinking to haf the same name as my blog..but nah...make it more confusing..ehehehe..wif all tt fuzz n wuzz n fizz..hehehe..k lah..gonna put the link up at my blog soon..so tt all the photos can be seen there..hmmmm..k lah..tink till here..haf nothing more to update..or mebbe juz too many things to update.. ;) well adios then~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-06-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

heloo peepzzz..hehehe..ok..its the FIRST DAY OF THE MONTH...hehehe...yesterday was dillah's b'dae..31st may..and ya..shikin's b'dae is coming this sat. 5th june..and tt sweet darlz sha b'dae will be on 30th june..at the end of it..hmmm..quite a few june babies..

oh ya..lemme update my "date" wif sha juz now..hahaha..met her at hougang mall first..as she is paying bills..she was late..kesian budak ni tunggu berpeluh2...eeewww...hahahaha..k..so go do stuffz at hougang there and then took 132 to far east plaza...reach at bout 2.15..and we were thinkin to catch the 2.40 SHREK 2 @ cineleisure...but seems we hungry..so we delayed to 4.45pm and go eat at sakura then..ate fried cockles kway teow n sha ate mee tom yam soup..and order a side dish,spring roll..hehehe..then soon after we ate..make our way to heeren to search for presents...pusing2..ronda2..turun naik escalator juz to find this pathetic shop where i bought the badges all tt...ya..i forgot..haiz~ getting older already...kesian sha..hehe..sorry ya girl..alrite then hunt2 all tt..at last bought dillah a box n card..cos i got the present already..so goin to put in inside a box wif a card...then as for shikin we hunt satu annex..and found nothing..so at last bought this friends till the end ke ape tah ah..thru thick n thin..i forget lah..ehehe..quite sweet..its a frame..ya..then bought her card..then wrap the thingy skali..yeah..then after tt..its already 4.30..so we rushed to cineleisure..siak ah...quite a lot of ppl sia...i thot tt it was monday n theres gonna be less ppl...skali when want to buy the 4.45 show..it was full..left 2 seats damn infront i tell ya..so..no choice but to take it...i'm ok wif it..dun mind..but then..sha dun like...abe ape nk buat..i'm sorry ah..terribly sorry seh..promise never take front seat nimore...;) ya bought nachos combo..and went into the cinema...ni sumer fast game i tell ya..hehehe..niwae SHREK 2 was great..hilarious..and last2 quite sweet i tell ya..and i LUV tt pussy in the boot...he is so damn cute when he make muke kesian..hahahaha..so funny..u all shld go n watch..hehe..ya..so after the movie go find TVinnovation at centrepoint all there...but dun see any...i onli remember at bugis there is..hehehe..sha needs to buy her mom something..but can't find..sorry ah sha..

haiz~it seems i've said alot of sorry for today's outing..i enjoyed...haf a great time..but then dunno whether she had...hope she had too lah kan...ya..so after tt go back to heeren and sha's wanna eat crepes..and yup bought crepes and we walk back to far east plaza to buy sha's mom dinner..then go back..today sha says i'm angry alot of times...i dunno when i'm angry n when i'm not...haiz~ my attitude sux i gez...need to badly change seh..so tt ppl will not always think i'm angry 24/7...marah bukan sifatku..juz like the song sang by NEWBOYZ..the lyric also got some meaningful verse..hehehe..howeva me saying tt marah bukan sifatku...some ppl will still intend to feel tt i'm always angry..to sum things up bout this thingy..i juz want to say sorry sha..=) k lah..after all tt..we took bus back hougang..walk sha's home and head back home taking 72 lak...quite tiring ah...but its enjoying tho...gonna catch garfield the movie too..hehehe..mesti cute2..kehrkehrker..and ya spiderman 2 also must not miss..lotsa show will be coming out this june...can't wait..k lah..i'm dead tired now..gonna sleep quite early today...early also not tt early lah kan..hahahaha...so u all out there..take care ya..adios~

p/s:to BUBUQUEEN aka wada..who say i dun like u being the same class s me..i said THANKFUL lagik ader..alerrmekkk...:P niwae long time neva tag..miss ya..hahahahahaa..and to mar2 wats wif the oi at the tagboard..sewel ah dini..hehehe..k k..ciaoz~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

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The quality that most appeals to you:	Sense of Humour
In a survival situation, you:	Cleverly trick your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Pragmatism
Your gift is:	Genius
In groups, you:	Prefer to act as security
Your best quality is:	Your indomitable will
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature

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hehehe...one of those nothing to do quizzes again...dunno whether its true or not..hahaha..but who cares..it was fun..kherkherkehr..k lah..today nothing much happen..went to take my bursary..hehe..made a fool out of myself..nearly trip when went up on stage..then got some bad luck a lil bit..sedih seh..tk besalah..ehehehe..my dad bike's fall off..cos the tanah where he park at jln kayu juz now is lembot..we dun notice..when want to get the bike..he see it on the ground..d'oh..of cos he was so damn shock..and haf no mood already..howeva we did go to PS..plaza singapura to walk2..hehe..at last we are father n daughter yg gila2 balik..hehehe..go play arcade all tt...then tinking to watch Shrek 2...but then..fuh~ so damn long sia the queue...and suddenly..old days started to freshen up...those days tt shld onli be kept as memories..ya..haiz~~ k..wateva..ermmm..so tk jadi tgk ah..hehehe..so after tt..my mom call to go to my grandpa hse...so ya..we did..went out from tt PS tk rain...then suddenly when come to PIE at East Coast down there it starts to rain damn heavy..and the droplets are sharp..hehehe..pain seh..wif lightning all tt..and we still riding all the way of the expressway...wat to do..so tawakal je lah..and keep on riding...soaking wet i tell u..but then who cares..goin to get cold i gez..but..nah..i'm strong..kehrkehrkehr..hope so..k k..gather again at my grandpa hse...then went home..

ya..tmrw goin out wif sha..goin to "shopping" some stuffs at town..hehehe..like rich like tt...well..sad waa n nadz can't come along..nadz aunt went back last nite..ya..so..of cos..she wif her amy n kimmy tt one..hehehe..as for waa..something not plan to happen crops up...and ya..but then..gonna ask her if she still wanna tag along tmrw..its ok if she still can't..then it'll be a DATE wif sha tmrw...WAKHAKHAKHAKHA..*larfs like idiot* ya ya..i noe...all of u will go..eewwww...but helllooo...a date doesn't mean for BGR onli...frens also can date wat...hahahahaha..wateva..joking onli lah..like as if sha wanna "date" wif me..ni pon dia kes terpaksa agaknye temankan..hehehe..oklah..after this, tink gonna jump to tt bed of mine yg tgh tunggu tu..hehe..so update u all some other time ya...take care..adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

hi all..ok..i noe i neva update for yesterday...well..nothing much happen actualli..onli tt RESULTS OUT!! ARGHH..hehehehe..niwae..managed to go thru tt STRESS SCARY SESSION yesterday..at 12AM...hehehe...i pass all..syukur alhamdulillah...hehehe..but not tt satisfying...but wateva it is..i get to go into my DREAM specialisation...HRM..HUMAN RESOURCE MGMT...weee~~ yippeeee...ya..same goes to my WISM and win..ya..all of them still the same class..as wat i told u guys already..and ya..me will be the same class wif wada...then..tt means...since the class is true..tt means..haiz~ ya..somebody will be in the same class as me...for 2 yrs...2 idiotic yrs..so long seh..ergh! dunno wat will happen lah kan...can't wait to start 2nd yr...hahaha..wowwee..me are seniors now..2nd yr already..kehrkerhkehrkehr..so happy...and the time do flies fast ya..it seems like i noe my frenz all like a few months back..but then...its already 1 yr seh we haf known..long huh...hmmmm...well will build the friendship even more stronger and tighter hope..hehehe..k lah..me happy lah still got wada...its not i'm using her or wat lah..but...felt lucky..if not..sure die one...wif nobody in tt class...and got "him" also..haiz~ sure die....hehehe..but then got wada..hope can distract me lah..hehe..ermmm...alrite..today go send my cuzzin,aidil to umrah..ya..nadz noe him..hehehe..those "soft" cuzzin of mine...aidil..well..dia soft je lah..but helloo...tk padan..ader mataair u..kehrkehrkehr..k lah..niwae..amazinly his best fren is nizam...yup..nizam ex-siglap last time...tt cute guy wif goatee..hehehe..n he is still cute..hahahaha...berpeluk pelukan seh my cuzzin ngan si nizam tu..sayang nah..hahahahaha....and niwae...he salam-ing all of us..nk masok 4 kali..hahahahaha...and kiss n hug his parents all tt pon nk masok 4 kali...terok ah..burok..hehehe..sayang nah nk tinggal kan kita2 ni...mcm nk gi berperang utk negara...hahahaha...well he go alone lah kan...ok lah..a guy..bagos lah...hehehe..so after all those bye2..bon vogage session sumer...me,my mom n my aunties n uncles sumer balik...ya me n mom go to my grandpa hse..sebelah my mom..ya..go there..kindda gathering down there..hehe..so apelagi..gossiping lah...hahahahaha..burok eh..makcik2 ni sumer..hahahaha...but fun..hehe..then watch anugerah my uncle taped last tuesday..hehe..cannot watch me go BBQ mah..ya...cos shikin got call me n i haven came back..n she told my mom tt ader budak siglap masok anugerah..so i wonder who lah kan...and...and...ahahhahaha...its SHAZWANI..hahaha..ya..tt fanatik of mine..hahahhahaha...tt day sab saw her..ni masok tv pulak..hahahaa...niwae..she lose weight tau..hehe..bagos seh..makin lah aku fanatik kat dia..hahahahahaha....oh ya..she sang bukan cinta biasa..hehe..dia kan won the siti nurhaliza voices alike ke ape dulu tu..hehehehe...ok lah..hope she dpt masok lah kan..hahahaha..gonna support her..hahahhaha..like as if..hahaha...sukerr nye akuuu..

alrite2 sudah2...hehehe..k lah..then da watch all tt..try nugget lembu..hahaha..cool huh..nugget pon ader lembu..hehe..ya..quite nice ah..then balik..my uncle send home...then reach home..hehehe..call sha tadi..talk2...miss her so much seh..hahahaha..mcm satu hari tk jumpa leh mati gitu tau..hahahha..so she actualli da nk tido...but she managed to talk wif me first ah..sanggup dia..thanx eh sha...u r great...luv ya loads..hahahahaha...k k..luv all loads loads too...so juz finish talking wif her...now me updating the blog...back to boring life..hehehe..oklah..i tink after this i'm goin to sleep lah..tmrw goin to wake up early at 8-9 like tt...cos goin to grassroot club..ya the thingy behind NYP tu...me get bursary lah...hehehe..from NTUC INCOME...hmmm...money money money..i want money..hehehehe..giler...of cos tt money goin to save for my books for 2nd yr..dunno lah...i tink i take some ah..hahahaha..c first...k lah..mebbe goin wif my dad onli...hope my mom tk nk gi..hahaha..so tt i can go there wif my dad naik bike..hehehe..jahat seh..bukan nye i dun her to go lah..but then she nanti go jempotan lagik..n me terang2 dun go..ya..dunno lah..gonna see how tmrw...k lah peeps..i tink till here lah...and ya..here's my result for the 2nd semester..quite bad lah kan...but bersyukur je lah i pass all..k lah..adios~

Name: NORAFIDA BINTE SAMSUDIN
Admission No. : 033037A
Course of Study : DIPLOMA IN BUSINESS MANAGEMENT (BMDF01)
Overall Performance : Band 3

Please refer below for the academic results for Academic Year 2003/2004, Semester 2
(results will be released from 29/05/2004 to 22/06/2004)

BM0003 PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING CM B 4
BM0008 MACROECONOMICS CM C 4
BM0011 STATISTICAL THEORY FOR BUSINESS CM D 4
BM0016 PRINCIPLES OF MANAGEMENT CM C 4
BM0022 EFFECTIVE WRITING SKILLS CM C 4
BM0027 COMPUTER SOFTWARE FOR BUSINESS CM C 4

Minimum Credit Required For Graduation CM/PE/CE : 168/2/0
Cumulative Credit Earned For CM/PE/CE : 50/0/0

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-28T02:16:00.000+08:00

arghhh...so boringgg...ish...y..y..hahahaha..u see...its dead boring till i can go crazy...feels like doing something exciting...hmmm..bang my head on the wall? jump up n down my bed till break? slam my body to the floor? hahahahaha...ya ya..the looney is here...haiz~ too bz kills u...but too bored kills u more..hehehe..i dunno lah...its gettin bored n bored nowadays...MY DARLZ SHA HAVE BEEN MISSING...hahahahahah...WHERE ARE YOU?!?! WHERE?!? well...i noe..she's tired...fine..since i'm one great fren...khakhakhakha...i understand understood wif her situation lah kan..hehehehe...baik tak? baik kan..hahahaha..ok ok..usah dilayan pompuan giler ni..hehe...alrite..wat i'm goin to update eh...hmmm..*scratching my chin* lets see...FANTASIA BARRINO is the IDOL..great finale juz now..then..ermmm...watching meteor garden now...but still is boring...ergh! this is so frustrating...very u noe..hehe..niwae ya..I MISS U SHA!!! hahahahaha....so long already neva online...how dull my life will be ya without her..hehehe...k lah..enuf bout her lah...like as if she will go online this instant....eventho how i wish her to be...she's fast asleep now..goin to wake up early tmrw..so its better for her lah kan...haf enuf rest...niwae, i'm not tt cruel u noe...heehee..i dun tink bout myself..to make myself happy onli..i muz think bout her too..poor my dear sha...hehehe..well..thinking to go PS tmrw..or mebbe town..ISETAN..gonna survey something..but..dunnolah..not sure yet..nobody's in mind to ajak...waa kluar ngan B..nadz..mesti tk leh..hehehe..sha lak..tk nk ah..she mite be tired nanti..hehehe..tkpelah..haven yet confirm lagipon...so like tt gonna rot at home all day waiting for 12AM,29th May, to shiver and drench ourselves wif beats of perspire to view our results...kherkherkher..mcm tragic gitu kan...shiver lah..drench lah..beats of perspire lah..hahaha..drama mama tol lah aku ni..hehe..but wateva it is..pray hard everythings fine..and the posting of the specialisation is confirm..bout the posting of the class..i dun want it to confirm actualli..but then..i haf to accept the fact i gez...

ya..if its realli true..then.."him" will be the same class as me..SHIT..hehehe..i'm half happy..i'm half scared..happy..cos mebbe dunno lah..terubat rasa rindu ke..but then...THEN...i'm bit more scared now..cos wat wada told me juz now was rite lah..she said...abis lah...fida..u goin to like not concentrate or not be urself in there lah nmpknye...ya..its kindda true lah kan..well..she knows me lah...haiz~ then how seh...i dunno wat will happen nanti...howeva wada did tell me something lah..its like..look at things objectively..its normal to miss someone when a relationship ends..we must not like dwell too much on the missing him part..cos we'll shut our world from making sense of it all..ya..kindda true..i'll try my best lah kan..this is all satu rintangan in my life ajer..juz one of those obstacle tt i haf to go thru in my life so tt God knows how strong i am...i believe i'm not..but it doesnt mean i CAN'T be strong..hehehe..i CAN...i know i can..be wat i wanna be..if u work hard in it..u'll be where u wanna be..hehehe..ok ok..wateva it is..results come first ya..quite impt u noe..so wish me luck ya..pray hard i do well...;) ok lah..can't wait for the reunion wif my beloved "kak aishah"...kherkherkher..its the beautiful fren of mine..hehe..my ex-A.Maths teacher n band teacher in-charge in sec. sch..ya..Mdm Janet Chua..miss her seh..hehe..the last time i saw her is when i n dib went out together wif her after skool...which is..march i gez..or mebbe february..i also forgot..hehehe..k lah..hope to meet soon lah eh...k lah..since its damn...my goodness boring...i tink i'm going to sleep after this..can't stand it animore...if tis continue evryday..then i'll be dead of boredom...do visit me for my ceremony ya..kahkhakhakha..aarrgghhh...eeerrgghhh...iiirrggghhh..oorrrggghhh..uurrggghhh..shucks...why dude..why..gif me back my interesting life..hehehhe..howeva its ok...i noe sha will be here...for as long as she can..and tt means my life is not dull yet..cos i still noe there's "sunshine" waiting for me down there at hougang ave. 4...when i woke up every morning...hahahahaha...fida..fida..sewel betol lah dini..da terok ni..da terok..hahahaha...k k..i gez i really shld make a move..so till here ya..adios all..wish me luck! MISS YOU SHA!!

p/s:well today's entry is dedicated to sha lah kan..hahahaha..since got lots of her name in here..kherkherkher..well sha..jgn marah eh klu too much of ur names..hahahaha..i juz plainly miss YOU..take care sweety~ hear from u soon...

i can offer u my shoulder||and show you how much i care||i'll be there if u need me||and not juz leave u there

2004-05-27T15:26:00.000+08:00

weee!!! me got THE REASON-HOOBASTANK music code at last...hehehe..been a long time to put this song up in ma blog..but powerweb all those stupid shit cannot come out..got prob..now..yee haw~~ got it man...great..i loikkee~~ well..stole waa's code for my status bar below..hehehe..sori waa..share share eh..hahahaha..waa baik perrr..kehrkehrkher..alrite2...i'm glad my blog is fully quite satisfying i gez..hehe..got songs..ya..its enuf lah..not goin to edit anithing more...see lah if found nicer or cooler skins then i start editing back..hehehe

alrite2...woohoo..today is AMERICAN IDOLS 3 FINALS!!! yeah man...before it shows on CH5..we can already know the results on idolsonfox.com...and YEAH BABY!! MY FANTASIA BABY WON!!!!!! woohoooo...I LOVEEE ITTT...hehehe..ok ok..i noe..i'm goin insane here...hehe..howeva..americans make the good choice this time round...but still stupid sia they all...LA TOYA LONDON shld be in here too...fighting against FANTASIA...well..not her luck i gez...its ok LA TOYA..u mite get record deals too ya..well...FANTASIA BARRINO...U RAWKS n ya..lets join the hall of fame of AMERICAN IDOLS along wif kelly clarkson n ruben studdard...CONGRATS GIRL!!

woo hoo...FANTASIA in one of her superb performance...

k all..till here ya..update more laterx...remember..watch AI3 tonite for FANTASIA BARRINO superb finale...go girl~ adios

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

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well..hiya there..hahaha..rate 1-10..but i get 11...wat the heck..hehehe...niwae..wateva lah kan..dunno true or not all this..hehehe...alrite2..my computer is getting bad to worst..realli need to do something wif it..haiz~..ok..so lemme update bout yesterday ya...yup..FWISM had a BBQ...oopss..sori..not FWISM nimore..its D'FWISM..ya..fardillah...or..a.k.a dillah..yup...my secondary sch fren..i brought her along yesterday..and it seems tt waa n sha got themselves a new "best fren"..hahahaha...they like her lah...i mean...mcm dia best gitu lah kan...hehehe..so..ya..waa decided to put her in FWISM..so become D'FWISM..mcm D'lloyd lak..hahahaha...cool huh..well..yesterday was a SUPERB..hehe..it was great i tell ya..i haf fun..ya..eventho my mind is wondering arnd..hehe..but aniwae...i enjoy it...well..i kindda do the job of starting fire all tt kan...and ya..pembakar sumer nye aku lah..hehehe..its ok..i like tt job niwae..howeva my eyes was like crying already ah...wif all those smoke..hehehe..ya..eventho lil ppl onli came..cos we ajak lil ppl..hahaha..but then..quite a success u noe..hehehe..food finish..cos we got pack ourself and bring some back home..ya..so sumer abis..isn't tt good...hehe...

ok..me,sha,nadz n dillah met for shopping at Shing Shong at Bedok Reservoir..ya..do our shopping there..and then took taxi to ECP..reach there at 3 like tt..n waa was late..so we sit down at pit first...bought ourselve McD's first cos we were damn hungry..ya..then sit2 lah..then at 3.30 i ask nadz n dillah to go and take satay at syam's hse at pasir ris...i was so worn out..dunno y..feeling sleepy gitu..mebbe the breeze..hehe..so i "ordered" both of them to take..hahahaha..how bad i am...but who cares..sorry ya nadz...ok per..exercise...kau kan da "gain" weight..hahahaha...k k..sori2...alrite then..me n sha waited for waa to come..then came waa wif the fried rice..and also...flies was evrywhere when waa reached..hahahaha..slalu gitu..last time we go picnic pon same...waa ni bawak kawan yg tk dijempot seh..hehehe..then beat2 arnd..me,sha n waa..hehehe..ya ya..like small kids..waa ah..start dulu..ahaaahahha..:P k then at 5.30 sha haf to go back home to take chicken..so me accompany sha till bus stop..while waa left alone..then came back and saw tt win,man,airul,mina n rahaider..ah..dunno how to spell the name lah..hehehe..ya..they reached already...then they were pouring charcoal all tt..then at last..me haf to make the fire..tk leh harap langsung dorang2 tu..man jugak..hahahaha...rajin..help in poking those crab meat..hot dogs into the satay stick..hehehe..ok then at 6+ like tt i managed to make the fire..terror tk..hahahaha..wateva lah kan..ya..then we start BBQ-ing lah..but then chicken lom sampai2...hehehe..7+ like tt baru sha came wif her bro help to carry...ya..took some pic..its at our yahoo group..if wanna see..go there lah..hehehe..then at 8+ nadz went back wif dibah,rahman n mel..then at 10 i think mina n airul went home..left me,sha,waa,dillah n the 2 guys..win n man...ya..waa haf to wait for her B to come at 12+..so win n man accompany her lah..while dillah went back took taxi..n sha n me also went home..at bout 11.30 like tt..ya..so reach home at 12..dun get any scolding..lucky..hehehe...then was too tired..while waiting for my comp to on..i accidentally slept at my table..hahahaha..kesian eh..hahaha..well then tersadar at 1 like tt and then switch off my comp...tk jadi nk online..then straight go to bed...it was like heaven when i get to lie down..hehehe...ya..then slept till 10 today..

today dun go out..stay at home at lazing arnd onli...then juz now..nadz call me saying bout class tt we'll go in our 2nd yr..ya..we all got into HR..but then it seems like issit real or not seh..haiz~~ dunno lah..its like wow..great then..syukur alhamdulillah lah if its finalise...cos HR was like my dream seh..i went into biz mgmt becos of HR...hehehe..ya..duno lah..sha,waa,nadz,mina n win stay the same class together...great then..while me..nah..me not same class...they inside BM0324..me in BM0321..ya..same class s my 1st yr classmate too..ya..lucky there's wada..hehehe..goin to be wif her for 3 yrs...oh no..hahahaha..nolah..i'm happy..i'm thankful...nothing to ask more..gettin into HR wif sha,waa,nadz,mina n win was ok already...we can still study together or wat..hehhe..howeva realli seh..dunno whether its finalise seh..haiz~~ nanyang..nanyang..so not organise..k lah..wateva it is..29th is still the big day..result coming out..hehehe..i'm scared bout my stats...ya..and others too actualli..hahahaha....juz pray hard lah evrythings ok..and its true..i get into HR..hehehe..well..guys..wateva it is..whether we diff class or diff specialisation or wat...WE'LL STAY FOREVA FRENZ ya...this goes to all my classmates too..like mar2..fadila..sam..angeline..peixuan..ya..all of them..those will be separated from me..hehehehe...k lah..till here ya..gonna watch AMERICAN IDOLS...FANTASIA~ ROCK ON BABE..I SUPPORT YOU..hehehehe..k lah..adios all..take care..enjoy life~ ;)

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

halo there peepz..rite..tmrw is the FWISM BBQ PIT...lots of things crop up...but dunno lah...hope can settle it smoothly lah kan...tah ah...i'm having a headache seh...pikiran evrywhere...haiz~~ niwae..i felt kindda fuctup...ntah lah...life doesn't seem to be great niwae...its ok..dun want to keep brooding bout it...nanti tk pasal2 kena marah ngan sha....actualli i haf nothing to update for today..cos like..nothing happen...me one whole day at home..staring into this screen...ya manage to finish marmar's blog...hope she like it...

well alot of things i'm feeling or thinking bout this past few days...my mind was a total mess i gez...i dunno whether i'm the one tinking pessimistically or wateva i tink is actualli true..or kindda true..ahh...wateva..i dunno lah...oh ya..my life gettin bored..n bored as day pass...hmmm...y eh...want to work..but like dun want...ntah lah...how i wish i am rich...no need to work all tt...juz like meteor garden..the daoming si...so rich seh...haiz~ well..wateva..tts fantasy niwae...but there are such person lah kan....those england nye queen nye anak2 ke..those realli2 big2 ppl lah...of cos their life is like tt daoming si..even more kaya dari tt daoming si...alrite2..i'm sori..da tkde benda nk update...gi melalut lak aku ni...sori ah..k lah...i tink i better stop here ah...rather than me melalut more n more...hope tmrw goes well...pray hard...k lah..till here...adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

halo peepz..watsup..hehehe..well..kindda bored..so i changed my layout..and ya..now haf song all tt...so happy...i'm satisfied...but soon this taste of mine will change and will hunt for more new layout..hahahaha..can't stop looking arnd u noe..seeing how nice ppl's blog is..rather than mine..hahahaha..ok ok..dun want to over2 lah eh..simple like this also can rite..hehe..niwae..comments ya..hehehe..k k..yesterday was so damn bored tt i spend half od my day doin quizzes..hahahaha..realli2 nothing to do..well..i post some of the quizzes up here yesterday already..and ya..update a lil bit bout OGL Camp after tt...well..in nadz blog..she tell every further details of the camp..hehehe..semangat ditu...so..if anybody want to noe more wat happen in the camp then go n look at her blog aite...as for me..i haf not much to say..the camp is great..quite fun..and i enjoy it..and ya..worth it..damn worth it..hahahaha..5 bucks for 4 sets of delicious meals...hehehe..the camp isnt tt brutal lah kan...kindda haf freedom a bit ah...ya..ok lah..wish to go camp like tt again la kan..but it'll be better wif my WISM arnd..and all ma frenz there too...hehehe..mcm gini i do my own camp ah..hahahahaha..insyaAllah lah eh..hahahaha..k k..

as for today..i dunno why its so damn bored..nobody is online...waa pon masok kluar masok kluar...ya..so me juz now woke up at 11 and then freshen up and ate my breakfast..then at 12+ gitu went online..and ya..decided to do marmar's blog..ya..she also changed to blogspot..but ask me help to design for her..ya..so finding her blog skins and then blogskin.com go some prob..cock up in the middle..so gave up and play my neopets..hahahaha...they are dying..poor thing..long time neva visit them..hahahaha..bad..owner..bad..owner..hehe..ya..so play neopets till i dunno wat time..then waa ask to dl songs from IRC..ya..so log into IRC..quite some time i've went in there..ya..so sambil dl songs...apelagi..those ppl also nk chat2 all tt..ya..so ok lah..chatted in there till 5+..then send waa the song and me go bathe..hahahaha..ya at 5+ like tt then i bathe..so restless say...cos when my day is start wif boredom..then i become restless all the way..haiz~ wat to do...the only child mah..boring lah..no siblings..hehe..k k..dun want to brood bout it..bersyukur je lah..hehehe..alrite..now i'm still sitting down here..staring into the blank wall infront of me...ya..now then i remember..shld haf done some soul searching..hahahaha..but nah..not the rite place niwae..

alrite lah guys..i dunno wat the heck i want to update some more..nothing more to say..hehehe..and ya...now on tv is FINAL DESTINATION..remember the story i told u guys..run away from death all tt..ya..i like the show actualli..cos quite gruesome..hahaha..like tragic ah..but nonsense ah..hehehe..k lah..gez my nite will not be bored..gonna watch the show ya..hehe..adios peepz..

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-22T14:09:00.000+08:00

fid was
a Lively Hair Stylist
in a past life.

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yeah..lively indeed..but a hair stylist?? me? whakhakhkha..rosak rambot org nanti..hehe

Are you Addicted to the Internet?

53%

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You seem to have a healthy balance in your life when it comes to the internet and life away from the computer. You know enough to do what you want online without looking like an idiot (most of the time). You even have your own Yahoo club or online journal! But you enjoy seeing your friends and going out to enjoy life away from your computer.

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yeah..its true..i haf an online journal..and yahoo group..BUT..i love to see my frenz n go out wif them rather than online only..hehe

fid spins tunes as
DJ Slapdash Fluff

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woah..cool..hehe

W.I.S.M is my
lovely precious

Get your sweetheart's pet name @ Quiz Me

ceh..lovely seh..kerkehrkher..sha..waa..nadz..mina..this for u guys..u r my lovely precious "sweethearts"..ehkehrkehrkehr

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hahaha..romantic and sexy? oh purlease..kherkherkher

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hmmm..peach pie..sounds delicious..hehehe..

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weee..i'm a happy pumpkin head..hehehe

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well..i am a libran..but..surrounded by riches?impatient? over indulges...ermmm..is tt me? haiz~~ a libran but not my personality..hahahahaha..bole gitu..

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weee~~ i am winnie the pooh~~ i am winnie the pooh~~ hahaha..crazy moron..

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eh..i play flute seh..hahaha..not trombone...trombone adibah lah...haiz~~ but never mind..mebbe the personality is mine...not the instrument..ehehehe

A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. Youre most at ease when you've
got all your mates around you and you like to
party. Boys are a game and youre always on the
ball because you make sure you're always number
one.

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sociability.

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hahaha...i'm not a flirt ok..hehe..howeva some of the virtues and flaws are true..hehe

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hahahaha..JOSH HARNETT?? arghh...tt cutesie...hehehe..HOW I WISH..i'm goin to marry him..hahaha

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wah..nemo seh...i lurve nemo..so cute.. =D

well guys..i noe this is like damn lots of quizzes..hahahaha..i'm damn bored seh..juz came back from camp yesterday..and i'm all over aching..hehehe..even my fingers..i cant eat happily..hahahaha..back pains..muscle cramps..haiz~~ all this thing after a camp..ya..its normal i suppose...hehehe...ok lah..niwae the camp was quite fun..enjoy it..but tiring ah...damn tiring tt when we sleep last nite..at tutorial rooms..me was like drooling and nadz wake me up at 4 IN THE MORNING to say to me tt...idiots..hahahaha..but funny seh..eewww its been a long time i'm drooling seh..i tink i'm too tired ah..tts y..and nadz was like snoring away..hahahaha...funny..funny..ya..each tutorial room(level 3 blk D)are occupied by 5-6 girls..and..so..the room was occupied by me,nadz,mina and my classmate..marmar,sam n shiwei..ya..all my frenz..so happy...marmar n mina slept on the table and the rest scramble ourselves on the floor..me..hehe..lucky i got sleeping bag..but so..its still damn cold..hahahha..ok ok..overall was ok lah..great..now we r OGLs..isn't tt great..howeva..i'm scared...on tt day haf to be on ourself controlling each class...arrgghhh...hope it goes well...scaryyy..hehehe..cos me first2 like a bit shy mah..hahahaha..

alrite2...one last thing..I MISS U GUYS....MISS MY DEAR SHA n WAA..and MY DARLZ OLD FRENZ...lets haf gatherings ya...aniwae..pray hard for me for the upcoming results...I WANT TO GO HRM...WISH ME LUCK..hehehe..till here...update laterx..tuduloo~~~ adios my dear amigos~~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-20T01:37:00.000+08:00

hi there peepz..aite..this entry i made before me go to camp ya..hehehe...gonna miss u all..whakhakhkha..like 1 mth camp like tt ah...sedangkan onli 2D/1N..haiz~ so pathetic...but hope to be fun lah kan..hehehe..gonna pack my things up after this..and then hit the sack...cos tmrw bangun pagi..hehehe..haf to be in skool at 8..ya..ok ok..before tt..lemme update ya wat happen today...

hmmm..wake up at 10+..then watch this telemovie..malay show ah..vcd..keranamu ibu...damn sad seh...its like...haiz~ mengguriskan hati dan perasaan u..kherkherkher...sedih ah..got wan maimunah act all tt...ya..then while watchin..received a msg from sha...askin me to call her..hehe..ya so call her..talk to her..then..after tt she say she scared ah..got this bangladeshi talk to her while she hang clothes outside...then i was tinkin ok lah..since i'm goin to my aunt hse today..to take the sleeping bag..i can go her place to accompany her or wat ah...till she go out..ya..so ok..bathe and zoom to her place..hehehe..and dtg jer...no bangla..hehehe..tapi tkpe..i dun mind coming..even for nothing..whenever she needs me..i'll be there...hehehe..to u all also..whenever u all need me..i can be there...tgk tempat ah..klu kat jurong ke ape..then..makan masa ah..hehehe..tk zoom ah..=D k k..so ya..sha ask me to eat wif her..so ok lah..eat a lil bit...haiz~ berat badan pon da naik npknye...kena diet..hehehe...sha yg realise..tapi ntah kan..i stress ah mebbe..hahaha..sebab tu weight pon naik..kehrkerkher..k k..then after tt sha pon siap2..getting ready to go out..ya..so ok lah..at bout 2.30 gitu kluar..accompany her to the place first before me go and take 88 to pasir ris..my aunts place...

ya at there slack arnd..sleep..watch vcd..pillow fight wif my aunt..khakhakha..burok seh..mcm budak2...mak budak pon same jugak..hehehe..then talk bout my adek sedara..the sec 1 girl tu...ntah lah..mcm budak2 skrg ni...tau2 aje lah..da pandai tipu2..senyap2 da ader mataair all tt..ya..so talk bout these youngster nowadays..then dok at her hse till 8.30pm..and then head back home taking 15...reach home then discuss wif my mom wat to bring for camp...hahaha..which clothes all tt...then start to pack sikit2...then went online till now..and my packing is left half done...ya..nadz n waa da outx...sha..tk masok teros..hehehe..tired i gez..so,left me alone...so..tink after this gonna log out too..and finish my packing..dun miss me ya peepz..hehehe...but i'm sure to miss u..miss my sha..miss my waa..miss all ma frenz...hehehe..i will miss my notebook overall...hehehe..tkpe2..1 day fida..onli 1 day...cool k..hahahahaa..k lah..to all..enjoy ur day ahead..and take care..cya back on friday..adios~~

quote of the day: (1) "bagai"(pakai) lah topi "keladar"(keledar) sebelom naik motor utk keselamatan anda dan anda jugak akan kelihatan "cantin"(cantik) skali.(2)"nadz..amcm aku(kau)? ader baik??"

i've found a reason||the reason is you

2004-05-19T02:07:00.000+08:00

hi there...hehehe..ok..i'm tired now..want to update fast2 and then go to sleep..hehehe..ok ok..so today..wat did i do..hmmm...alrite..woke up at 9.55am..hahaha..suppose to be 10..hee..ask sha to wake up call me..hehehe..but then..at 9.55 gitu da bangun..hehe...my world was kindda spinning arnd..a few sec after i woke up..hehehe..but then back to normal..ya..then when the spinning stop..at 10 o'clock sharp..kherkherkher..sha pon call..hehe...bagos eh...pasang timer mcm gini..tepat pada waktu..on time..hehehe..k k..tanx niwae darlz...ok..so chat wif her jap..then baru mandi..then baru nk start mandi tu kan..whakhakhakha..received a call from nadz...and she was askin da kat mane?? and i was like..wat?? at home lah..whakhakhakha..belom lagik mandi..kherkherkher..abe lepas tu..dia da..eh..kata 10.30..hahaha..sedangkan i want to meet at 10.45 gitu...abe she da tecepat..i tink she patah balik or wat lah..hehehe...kesian kesian..slalu gitu..kiasu ah..kherkhekrh..abe lepas tu..mandi..then siap cepat2..then kluar..ya..today i slack ah..wore my hang ten jeans tu..kotor kan skali..then kenakan ngan my white hang ten polo-t tu..and then hp put inside poket wif earpiece stuck to my ear..hehe..and my wallet..oh ya..tk lupa jugak my lanyard..hehe..ya..tts all..slack kan...k..so kluar..and reach interchange earlier than nadz..cos she call me saying tt her bus lambat...and i force her to take taxi..but then suddenly bus pon dtg..abe lambat sak...eeeee..suroh blanja makan tk nk..kehrkehrkehrkehr...k k..so took 72 to nyp..then dlm bus hujan...and i was like..oooo..best...hehehe..skali sampai nyp..mcm kering gitu lantai..hahaha..dunnolah whether rain or not...alrite so wait for mina at the fountain..ya..then when mina came..fadila also came..and so we walk together gether lah kan..

oh ya..hahahaha..mina's slipper terkopek..hehehe...and wat i heard juz now she say to me tt..fida..sandal aku patah...i was like..huh?? ingatkan ader heel...hahaha..rupenye terkopek...rabak rabak..kehrkehrkher..so go buy super glue at college bkstore..while fadila met mar2..wada..sam n jemaine in front of the arcade...so walk our way to LTD 3..then masok tgk mcm Allah..setotet gitukan..hehe..but tkpelah...hope its goin to be fun lah eh..and i juz can't believe tt its this thursday seh...which is tmrw...ya..tmrw..i'm goin off..haiz~ cepat nye..hehehe..nasib 1 nite..klu tk..rindu lah aku kat korang2...like sha...hehe..i noe lah she dun miss me kan..waa..hehehe..she also dun miss me lah kan..sumer lah..hahahha..mcm like tt time leadership camp..last semester..i never go online for some time..and ppl was like worried..where's fida..whakhakhakha..howeva..i'm not 24/7 online per..hehehe...the way they all say..fida where..mcm terok nah aku ni..hahahaha..k k..but its ok lah..juz go ah..5 bucks pon 5 bucks lah..k..the briefin was karot..so fast..hehe..then collect form..then leh went off...so me,nadz n mina pon jln lah....we go to splash n decker to buy drinks..and bought a mambo mango smoothies....so...so....sorbet-ty..like sorbet like tt...oklah..quite nice..hehe..alrite then walk our way to interchange..mina took the mrt while me n nadz to 72 to hg interchange and then took 89 to downtown east...ya..nadz need to buy tix for BARNEY's BIG SURPRISE..hehehe..ya..so go n bought it and then went to shikin's hse straight away...but then we go NTUC to buy chips and drinks all tt first lah kan..hehe..

k..then reach her hse..we makan dulu..bapak dia suroh makan nasi..hehe..me n nadz was like kecohrable seh...nadz ah..level 2 also want to take lift..hahaha..then bile nk makan tu...shikin tgk kan kita pon..geli hati dia...mcm2 ah..hehe..k..then after eat..watch 50 FIRST DATE..was ok ah..farni a bit..sweet ah..ehhehehe..but too many mencoceh..kherkherkher..tapi overall..ok lah..k..then after tt..ingatkan nk tgk citer hantu..but then at last tgk citer HONEY ah..tt show also nice...i loike~ those lansing..lansing...breakdance..hip hop..hehehe..nigga all over...u noe..those..wassup..wassup..yo yo..LL COOL J...GINUWINE..MISSY ELLIOT...kindda thingy...hehehe..cool lah..hehe..ya..thru out the movies..i n nadz tk leh dok diam...asyik ader aje nk kenakan..hahahaha...geram seh...can't forget those time when we go back shikin's hse...and nadz slalu kena bully..whakhakhakha..me,nadirah n shikin will gang up and bully dia rabak2..wakhakhakhkah..those were the days seh..haiz~~..hehehe..k k..now its 2004 fida..c'mon wake up..hehe..k k..so after tt honey..nadz tinkin nak balik..then shikin ajak main monopoly..and i was like ok wif it lah kan..cos baru tt day i played wif my adek sedara..and i won like 3000-5000 like tt kan...and then they were like alah..fida action onli..itu lah..ini lah..abe kan..kan..kan..whakhakhakhkaha...I WON!! khakhakhakha..nadz is the papa kedana abis..whakhakhakha..she OWED me like 650?? whhakahkahkaha...tk termampu..klu jual every land or hse she ader pon..tk cukup...whakhakhakha..funny ah..i was like filthy rich lah kan...got this pagoda hse..ahahaha..cos i bought like 3 hse..and so shikin stack it up...3 storey like..pagoda like tt..whakhakhakha..fun lah..hehe..sori lah nadz...adat permainan...mesti ader yg menang...dan kaya..n other yg kalah..papa kedana..whakhakhkaha..k k..so after tt...sumer gif up..cos they noe i won..then me n nadz pon head back home...took taxi..ya..then reach home..and then my mom goreng kan mee..oooo...rezki..hehe..so refresh and go n eat..then watch missing...then suddenly..i saw waa online...whakhakahkahkha..was so happy..and ghairah gitu...at last..she's online..hahaha..miss seh..mcm lama menghilang...hehe..k k..then after tt watch incredible tales than till now lah..here i am..updating u guys..bout the not interesting everyday life of mine...hehehe..k lah..tink till here for today k..tmrw goin out to my aunt hse...goin to take her sleeping bag..hehe..for the camping...k lah..adios~

i've found a reason||the reason is you

2004-05-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

asekom...hehehe..yup..today met sha n waa at compass point...nadz dun want to go...no money...pemalas ah ditu..hehehe..ya..so me tinkin tt i'll be late..cos they are meetin at 1...but then at 1 i still at library bus stop waiting for 27...hehhee..but at last..i'm the earliest..weee~~ so wait for them at the bus stop...den came waa..followed by sha...ya..then sampai je gi hello! shop pasal waa nye modem tu..tapi its like over the warranty already..so she haf to buy a new one which cost 99 bucks...sak ah...damn expensive sia...so we tk jadi ah kan...then walk2...abe terjumpa this computer shop ah...and i see tt the modem all like cheaper ah...cos waa got 30 bucks jer..then we saw this modem cost 36 bucks...looks like her modem now..but diff color...hehehe..but then rite..juz now..biler waa balik...she say to me tt the modem is for dial up nye...tk leh broadband...shit ah...now i'm feeling guilty..where i noe seh..haiz~ tk tulis dial up per...abe me pon main rekomen jer...teros beli gitu...tk check tk tanye..hehehe..so waa will be changing the modem ah..but i scared ah..the broadband modem will be like quite expensive...hehehe..realli seh...i'm guilty sak...shit..realli2 sori ya...my darlz waa...hehehehe...

alrite..then..after tt..kita gi makan kat banquet...sha ate chicken rice..while waa ate wanton noodle..while me..hehehe..diet..hahahaha..me juz eat takoyaki...the octopus ball tt one..hehehe..nice man..i loike~ yummeh..hehehe..wif the mayonnaise...ooooo...*slurp**slurp*...oh ya..me forgot..b4 we masok banquet tu...while goin there..at the 77th st shop...got this indian guy n girl gadoh sak..i was like talking to sha...and like ntah2..heard a loud shout...abe lepas tu..tgk kat depan kita sak...mcm terencat gitu...hahaha..waa pulak da lari..hahahaha...jln the other way...hehe..takot seh..sape yg tk..its like..the guy was shoutin like hell....wif fuck all over lah...those vulgarities..sumer terkluar...then the girl is like..wearing uniform sak...abe at last kena ludah by tt guy...kurang ajar nye jantan...suar tol...geram sak....takot2 pon..tapi mcm...sial lah..wat the fuck...senang2 jer ludah...eeeee...klu lah aku pompuan tu...da kena sepak..baru aku jln sak...tapi..nasib ah kan...hehehe..k lah...so eat dgn tenang after tt..hehehehe...and sha n waa was like keep saying tt me today sexy...sexy ape sak...hehehe..siak jer...me wear the hang ten jeans tu..and black shirt..the little devil tu..and they say sexy...sewel ah..kherkherkher..ok lah..after makan kita teros jln kluar..but then bile sampai bus stop...i was sayin like..mak ai..cepat nyer..baru kul 2.30..hehehehe..so masok lah balik dlm compass pt tu..hahahaha...abe lepas tu..jln2...then baru lah balik...and then..kena kan sha wif her sexy pose..whakhakhakha..dia ckp org sexy..dia tu...waiting for me abe pose mcm vogue gitu kat tgh2 dunia...hahahahaha..kekek sak...ok..then send waa to the interchange..she took 156 from the interchange..ya..then me n sha go out and took 161..

ya..me dun want to go back first ah..hehehe..like so early seh...buat penat je i bathe kan..juz to go out like tt...hahahaha...ok ok..so tinkin to accompany sha home n wait for her to take somethings to be photocopied jer..abe she ajak masok..so ya...at last...lepak kat umah dia...hehehe..look at her past education marks all tt...report book dia sumer..ya..hehehe...pictures..haahaha..cute..vogue..pictures..hahaha..then talk2...till her mom came home from work...ehehehe..ya..then followed by her dad..then at bout 6+ gitu..baru lah we went down to do the photocopying..hehehe..ya..then went to 7 eleven to buy drinks...and saw this cute guy working there..whakhakhakhha..siak jer fida..gatal..hahahaha..alah..juz a compliment..hehe..ya ya..then bile nk cross the road tu..sha got a call from her mom to buy pisang masak hijau..hehehe..and then we pon patah balik lah kan...hehehe..so carik2 the pisang..tk jumpa..abe at last..jumpa ah..tapi i tink still wrong ah..hahahaha..its ok..then lepas tu..bile da cross tu...sha got a call lagik...from her bro lak..hahahaha..suroh beli kan pineapple lak...yg da potong2 tu...hahahaha..mcm2...hahaha..so we pon patah balik...hahahaha..mcm org ape gitukan..asyik jln situ muke kita je..hahahaha..but its ok...i dun mind..ya..then kan..ni sha kan..hahaha..eeeee....geram seh..ader she put all the pisang..nenas sumer dlm her sling bag tu..khakhakhakhakha..dia ingat doraemon nye pocket ke..whakhakhkaha...kan nadz..hahaha..lain lah klu doraemon nye pocket sak..mcm2 leh masok...tk rabak....terok ah dia ni..pemalas...hahahaha..sori eh..hahaha...ok ok..then balik ah..hehehe..took 72 home...reach home and eat dalca daging wif roti..errmm..yummeh..my mom cook..mcm feel gitu seh..haahaha..k k..then here i am..online..ape lagik kan...niwae...kesian ah waa..i still tk leh get over it ah...mcm..she not online...for like near to 2 weeks..ish..abe tk update blog all tt....haiz~ i terribly sorry waa...forgive me lah if i dun anything wrong eh...pasal rekomen main rekomen je tu sumer ke...really dunno seh..slip of my mind ah..tk teringat nk tanye sumer...haiz~~ hope..u'll be online back A.S.A.P...missing ya...whakhakhakhakhkah...touch tk?!?! hahahaha...feeling gitu...k lah..tink till here lah..tmrw need to go to skool..got camp briefing at 12pm..ya..haiz~ boring seh...kayaking activity has been taken off by sashimani,our dear SBM director...and now the fee of the camp is onli 5 bucks..i noe lah..mahal salah..murah salah..tapi..mcm mak ai..its gonna be boring rite?? haiz~~ dunno lah..juz wait and see lah kan..hehehe..k lah..update ya all tmrw..adios~

i've found a reason||the reason is you

2004-05-17T00:44:00.000+08:00

hi peepz..well a tiring day today..at 10am in the morning heard noise came out from the living room..yup..then suddenly heard ppl trying to open my room door..idiots....my kuzzins are here...and me are like tryin to open my eyes one by one...focusing who is tt...they were larfin lookin at my state..and then wake up and freshen up myself...eat nasi rawan...then after watch Selamat Pagi Singapura...after tt they all lepakz ah my room which like pig sty already..hehehe..so me tidy up for awhile and then played UNO with them..yup..cheating arnd the game..kehrkherkher..cos dorang mcm slenger gitu...hold cards like damn low..hehehe..howeva...i always the 2nd person to game...shit seh..hehehe...niwae..there's a saying tt org tipu slalu kalah..hahahaha..but nvm..its for fun n larfter..so after tt..me go bathe..and then get ready to teach one of my adek sedara tuition...ya..she havent finish wif her exam..cos today..its her maths paper 2...ya..so tuition from 2+ till 4+...they like enjoy lah gitu kan..ngan air con lah..ngan selimut lah..bantal lah..comfy giler gitu...sampai kan.."cikgu" ni pon naik ngantok..hahahaha..so comfy seh...but then manage to stay awake..till the end of the tuition...then talk2 wif them..while play pillow smashin...tkde keje gitukan..nasib tk terkluar segala bulu2 ke...hehehe...then after tt help my adek sedara wif her prep work..for her art exam this tuesday..ya..help to draw2...hehehe..its been a long time me draw2 seh..yup..then after tt..me n my kuzzin..amalina tt one...go to the kitchen to make or roti john special...ya..yesterday my aunt do at my atok's hse kan...then she teach us the dayang2...so tt we can do it today at my hse..when we hungry..ya..so make ourself food to eat...quite nice u noe..kirekan for us beginners...perfect gitukan..hahaha..bt tk garing ah..roti john garing2 sedap...hehehe...niwae who cares..as long the cheese is melting away inside there...hehehe..ya then da kenyang sumer masok bilik main monopoly lak..hehehe...while me sign in the internet....then while playing sha online...n i was so excited duno for wat...hehehe...miss her cos satu hari tk nmpk dia online..abe da ptg2 baru online...hehehe...but nvm lah..she dun miss me...aku ni lak yg mcm org giler gitukan...yeah..hehe...ya...so play monopoly while chatting wif sha...then after tt sha need to offline and be concentrate on the monopoly...hehehe..me won..kehrkehrkher...OKB beb...got bout 3000 bucks on my hand..hehehe...and my adek sedara ader a few hundreds je...alah..niwae..its juz a game..orite then after tt...tgh main...got a call from my mom saying tt they reached already..and ask me and the budaks2 to go down as well...cos me need to carry the stuffs she bought at johor tu...and my adek sedara pon went back skali...ya..after tt my aunt bought me van helsing..so watch it for awhile..quite ok lah...but dark lah the movie..no sun gitu...hehehe..of cos lah kan..kata citer dracula..tkkan nk ader sun kan..hehehe...ya..then after tt went online..yep..then got a call from shikin...hmmm..yeah..talk2..bout us..bout probs..ya..then after tt call waa n sha..conference and discuss bout BBQ pit we are having this 25th may...tuesday...ya...we tk jadi book a chalet..so pit pon ok lah..ya..so after discussing we also put down lah kan...abe nk buat lagi kan..hehehe..ya..tmrw waa nk gi antar dia pe modem tu..and sha need to hunt for job...me..well..they ask me along..so ok lah..juz go..seems i have nothing to do..tapi mcm tiang lampu kan..dorang 2 nk kluar ader tujuan...me? mcm extra gitu...manelah tau org tk suke ke..kehrkherkhekhr..k k..sori2..kidding...k lah..tink till here ah...update u all some other time..adios~

p/s: fell in luv wif tis song back..hehehe..

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i've found the reason||the reason is you

2004-05-16T01:15:00.000+08:00

yo yo..hehe...watsup dawg..kherkehrkher..k k..hi peepz..ermm..today was a tiring day for me..yup...yet..fun..hehehe...k..today wake up at 12+ near to 1..hehehe..something happen in the wee hrs...tt scramble me to panic state...kherkherkher..but it was ok...my pleasure for me to do tt anytime...*winkz* well a fren in need is a fren in deed perr...hehehe..so..wake up je..went online...till 4...ya..today me surf the friendster and was happily adding ppl...sending ppl msg..and addin ppl testi..eehhehe..well got to noe new fren....yes...my dear sha's fren..very thankful indeed sha..hehehe..niwae its ok...wats wrong making the circle of my fren bigger rite...kehrkherkher..k k..then at 4 me offline and go watch hindustan at central...wif my mom n dad..hehe..a nice show seh...ader sha kat dlm...khakhakhakha..serious...~~sha~~RINA mukherjee.. not rani mukherjee tau..RINA mukherjee...hahahahaha....and the hero is...bobby deol eh? or issit sunny deol? i dunno ah...forget the name..hehehe..interesting show seh..my dad yg tk minat hindustan sgt pon sampai khusyuk tgkkan the show..hehehe..abe at 6 gitu...my aunt call me..and say tt..my uncle will be picking me n my mom up at 6.30 gitu to go to my uncle hse ah..at pasir ris tt one...goin to haf famili gatherin....my aunt making roti john special...hehehhe...i want to watch the show till the end seh...cos its at the climax already...then haf to go and get ready lak...so nvm ah...my uncle pick us up...then followed by my dad coming later...ya..at there..as usual...kecoh rumah tu dibuatnye klu da bersatu....and it seems a long time alreay i neva go there seh...the flat da paint...very nice seh...lightin sumer tukar..ermmm...its been near to 2 mths...hehehhe...cos i'm afraid tt my uncle scold me bout my hp bill of last time..the $116 bucks tu..hehehhe..but then..juz now dtg..everyting seems normal..

so help in the kitchen making roti john special...hehehe..me n my adek sedara was like dayang2...wiping my aunts sweat...hahahaha....funny ah...it was fun...quite some time already since we haf fun like this...as u guys noe tt me n my aunts sumer rapat..like frens...calling awak2 saya2..hehehe...ya..after tt..eat...then sit down and talk2....gossipin arnd..hehe..ya..they were tinkin to start a biznes...kindda of delivery service gitu..and i had to become the accountant....kena calculate modal sumer....leceh ah..hehehehe...angan2 taik ayam ah dorang tu sumer...kherkherkher...k k..then bebual2 sambil foot reflexology...then tgk time da kul 11.45...yup..then pack2..and my uncle sent us home..oh ya..at there..erwin send me a take care forwarded msg...and then my aunt was playing wif it...abe she read it out aloud...and the msg kindda lovey2 lah..but its like meant for a fren actualli...but they all da pee wittt sane..pee wittt sini....feddup seh...and then my dad was there...muka da tukar...nasib..he dun tink bukan2..hehehehe...for goodness sake..i haf nobody lah..nobody wants me...kehrkehrkherkher..k lah..reach home at 12 juz now...and went online...boring seh..none of the WISM online...sha msg me already..she cant be online...ngantok..hehhee..so its ok lah..gez after this i sleep..but first i want to watch along came polly..niwae tmrw my adeks sedaras coming my hse..my aunt put them here..while makciks n pakciks go johor..shopping...my mom too...so left me and my dad..ya..then i still haf to teach my kuzzin tuition ah..cos tis monday is her maths paper 2...so..gez goin to be hectic day tmrw...layan-ing them..hehehe...so catch u guys up some other time ya...adios~

will i be there when u call me in the middle of the nite||i promise..i promise i will||

2004-05-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

yeap yeap...juz finish pesta perdana...long sia the show..kalah hindustan u noe..kherkherkher...aniwae..tis yr pesta perdana the host was great..i juz lurve them...they goes well wif each other lah kan...yup..its suhaimi yusof..this yr first place personality terbaik..maudy koesnadi..ya..she won pelakon serantau terbaik..and syafinaz a singer from m'sia...hehehe...they name themselves SMS...kherkher..cos..its Suhaimi..Maudy..and Syafinaz..hehehe..kelever u...k k..overall was ok lah..but draggy..cos rite..they call all this artis2 veteran..yg dok menceceh..berceramah di bawah lampu spotlite tu lama2 pulak..hehehe..ppl like receiving the awards tkpe jugak tk menceloteh..ni award lom bagi..dia mcm da menang nk bagi ucapan tu sumer...whakhakhkha...but tkpelah..bagi chance lah kat beteren beteren ni kan...sekali sekale naik pentas...hehehe...rite..ermmmm...ya..got this indonesian actor...steve emmanuel...gosh..damn wow~~..HAHAHAHA....hansem banget...ganteng si...cair gue...hahahahaha...and he partner wif seri wahyuni..she ah..one great actress ah..funny sia...spontaneous..i like ah...hehehehe...k k..then..maudy was sweet...she like..mcm gd ah..spontan too..bole layan giler2 suhaimi tu..hehehe..howeva..since its draggy...can see ah ppl looking at the watch...sleepin like nobody biznes...hehe..anak basir siswo ah...ditu mcm tk penah tido gitu..hhehehe..nasib baik budak...klu tk..hehehe..k k..yup..this yr suzairhe won..as the pelakon pembantu lelaki...can lah..for 7 yrs he wait..ehhehehe..then..for pelakon pompuan n lelaki terbaik diangkat oleh sharon ismail n khairudin samsudin..both frm rahsia perkahwinan...eh..abg aku ah..hahahaha..perasan..niwae...khairudin can win ah..cos he can cry betol ah..gd act ah..sharon also..bring watak yg bagos..hehehe...Allah..aku ni da mcm pengkritik tv lak...hehehe..komen..komen...hehehe..k k..sori2..i tink u all pon watch it rite..so noe lah wat happen kan..hehehe..niwae..ya..saw pakcik jambul north canteen tu..dulu2 dia dlm bangsawan lah..whakhakhkha..terror ah pakcik...sebab tu ah jambul maintain...hehehehe...

k k..now lemme update bout the outing juz now...ya..dipaksa bangun oleh sha tadi pagi..kul 7.15 da call hp..mcm kelam kabut aku dibuatnye..panik jap..hehhe..then she say..tk jadi gi far east..tgk wayang..cos waa was tinkin to "melaway" arwah nenek win...yup..so after tt..talk to sha tinkin bout wat to wear...cos if we wear normal clothing tk bagos per..then tkkan lah nk pakai baju kurong gi jaoh2...yishun sane..lagipon we r goin out after tt...ehhehehe..so at last..we decided to meet win downstair ah..ya..meet WISM at yishun interchange at 11...tapi me n nadz came at 11.15..hehehe..n mina lagi lambat..hehehe...yup..got beaten up by waa je...eeeee..geram aku..hehehe..pukul aku...pukul sha..pukul nadz...tapi tkpe..dia pon kena rabak..hahahaha...besttt u~~ alrite..then go win's hse..and ya meet him..talk wif him..all tt..then after tt...mayat pon turun..to be usung inside the bus...yup..watch the process all tt...then bacakan doa...and at tt point of time..i juz wish everybody tkde..and i can cry n cry n cry..haiz~ how i miss my late grandma very very much seh...those time when i cried..dun want to let my grandma diusung masok bus..mourning like one crazy child down there...and then was slapped by my mom w/o any notice..haiz~~ those time...its like...yesterday....howeva..deep inside me..there's a voice..tellin me..fida...strong..remember..strong..dun cry..dun cry fida...a tears or two drop down..but i keep it cool...well..its great..sha manage to be strong...i can see how she trying her best to be strong and stay calm...i noe..inside there...well..the incident was always fresh...but she managed not to shed tears...like meraung...howeva i gez its all in her mind...i cant blame her..me too..well..glad lah at last i saw smile coming out from her face...and followed by larfter...so..we rushed to sembawang sunplaza shopping centre to catch win a date with Tad Hamilton and yup..went it..and the movie start already...nobody seh..hehehe..so i sat alone lah..one seat away...and focusing on the show..hehehe..its a sweet show i must say...sad lah kan..for tt pete...well..not a gd day today..i'm tinking n been missing 2 ppl where i noe will not be there for me anymore...yup..my late grandma n yes..i miss "him"..aniwae..its for awhile onli...and ya..manage to pull myself thru after the show...

yep..went to causeway point..tinkin to get food from there..but..nothing..so at last...hehe..eat at McD at civic center..mak oi..mats n minahs(pronounce as maths n mynahs or m&m) was berseparan kat woodland tu..hahahaha..bersepar...betol....berserak sak..mane2..hahahahaha..da lah juz now waa say i wear baju like eh ah eh ah( M&Ms nye style ah) then they were like lookin kat kita je..klu tua2 tkpe..ni budak2...mentah2 lagik..mak ai...seram u i see...hehehehe..ape lah nk jadi ngan budak2 zaman skrg ni kan..k lah..tk nk masok campor lah hal dorang..ape nk jadi..jadi lah..kherkherkher..alrite..then after tt meet man,airul and one of their fren outside McD...gave them fries tk abis...hehehe..rezki jugak kan...hee...ya..then mina stay wif them while kita balik...all took bus home..eh..wrong..somebody dun go home mah..hahahaha..ya..waa take 858 to airport...hehehe..airport seh..flight eh..ehehehe..and then wait for sha's 161 to come..then me n nadz took 168 home..me n nadz conference wif shikin while the way back...hehehe..quite kekek..then yup..balik ah..reach home je..something unpleasant happen..i'm too tired...juz tired for all this..and then yup..freshen up all tt..went online...till now..k lah..tmrw waa ajak go dustaks eating2..but dun tink so i'm goin ah...sha n the rest i dunno lah..but me..sure dun go ah..sorry ya waa...last minute..cos..kering ah..u noe ah kan...realli2 sorry...now pasal pit ni pon tgh pikir mcm mane nk jahit balik kocek yg koyak ni..benang..jarum sumer tkde..kehrkher...hehehe..k lah..if the rest go..then haf fun je lah..and kirim salah the dustakz lah k...sorry waa..realli2 sorry..kluar lain kali k..k k..to all my peeps..take care..enjoy life to the fullest ya..cos we dunno when we'll be our time to leave...salam manis..dari fidzzzz adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

get the news tt win's grandma pass away..innalillahi waillahi rajiun...then tadi siang nadz told me tt...got org meninggal at her blok too...at last..its amali's dad..amali is nadirah's fren...ya..haiz~ why today seems like alot of ppl goin away...i'm scared..yes..the feelin of scared will always be there seeing each day ppl can juz left the world...more worst how young ppl also can left first before the elderly..but there's a saying tt we shld not fear death...everybody in this world..will die one day...onli God knows when will it be the turn of each person..we as hamba Allah..juz haf to wait for the time to come..if its time..then..we haf to go..seeing shows like final destination all tt..where we can avoid..or run away from death is like..nonsense..yes we can avoid death..but we can't run away from it...we can avoid it by taking care of ourselves...but walau apa pon kita try to take care ourselves..eventho kita tk sakit...perfect health all tt...but..we will die in some other way...mebbe juz collapse and died..yup..those mystery death..tkde punca...it can happen..Allah tu maha kuase..he haf the rite to do anything...well..we juz haf to accept it..redha..

after hearing the news of win's grandma...i was shocked..yup..truely shocked..how fast a person can juz go...then..tears started to roll down...i miss my grandma...i remembered the day when she pass away...eventho its near to 9 yrs she left me...but it seems like so fresh..every moment of tt sadness will always be in my mind..of cos we dun want our love ones to go away..i dun want to..i juz wish tt i go first than my love ones..seeing them leaving this world is like unbearable for me...yup..its unbearable..but..we haf to stay strong...crying will onli make them sad..and nanti hati dorang berat pulak nk balik ke rahmatullah...tt is wat i told win...and i believe..he's strong..tryin his best to calm...but as for me..a girl..i'm not capable to do tt...tears will non stop coming out from my eyes..me n sha was like missing our grandmas...as for my grandma..nearly 9 yrs ago..is still fresh..ape lagi sha..i understand her feelings..i noe wat she felt..tried to console her juz now..but ya..tink tt she need to be alone..well..its ok lah..i mite not be a gd consoler lah..well..i dun tink so i am..but i will try my best not to make my frenz sad..seeing them cry or sad..makes me wanna cry or sad too..its like when u pinch peha kiri..peha kanan pon terasa jugak...i like to put myself in other person shoes and then i can feel how bad it is for the person..in tt way..i can understand the person better..aniwae..eventho i dun get to console sha..but..i hope she'll be fine after hearing wat i said..i told her wat i told myself after me cried tinkin bout my grandma..i told myself..no fida..u cant cry..dun cry..it will onli make ur grandma sad too..i believe tt she can see all of us here..watch wat we are doin all tt..and i also believe..tt she too misses us all..tts y if i cried...and she seeing it..will also make her cry and sad too...i dun want tt to happen..i want her to live happily up there..not sad seeing me cry..we must not onli be in the shoes of those still alive..but we also haf to be in the shoes of those who had pass away..for those who are still alive..we can make them happy..in alot of ways..but then..for those who haf pass away..we cant do much..all we can do to make them happy is to sedekah kan doa for them always..and then..make ourself happy..which in turn will make them happy too...

well..all i can say now is tt..yg pegi tu..tetap pegi..kita yg hidop ni..patut continue wif our life..insya'Allah..yg pegi tu akan dirahmati rohnya oleh Allah...k lah..tmrw fwism will be goin out to watch movie..hmmm..i tink..till here for today ya..as for win..i'm sorry to here the news..dun worry ya..keep on moving..we will always be behind u..supportin u all the way..take care my dear fren..and to my dearest sha..eventho i'm not a gd fren to confide with..and also not a gd consoler..but i do noe how u feel..and will try my best to be in ur shoes..howeva i'm sorry as for not knowing how to make u feel better..but as a fren..i try my best to be there for u always..walau apa condition pon...i luv u guys..take care..and be strong..till here..

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-13T02:36:00.000+08:00

yey...got song back..hehehe..realli like biskot seh..aniwae...today doesnt seem like a bad day at all lah kan..hehehe...got to talk to sha...ish...it seems like a long time neva heard her voice seh..miss it badly..kherkherkher...aniwae..her voice seems different...whakhakhakh..she dun believe me..hehe..it become more...more..dunno lah..soft and manja gitu..kehrkherkherkker...k k..talk to her while on the way to my auntie hse...yup..talk bout chalet all tt...hehehe..haiz~~ miss her larfter too... =D oklah..then after tt teach tuition then stay at my aunt place for awhile...watch spice siblings and cinta bollywood all tt..then eat mee bakso..my aunt menu for today..hehehe..then after tt went back takin taxi..like rich lady like tt....hehehe..aiyah 3.40 onli...can lah..not always wat....kherkher..k k..reach home and my dad got a surprise for me...hehehe...he bought me a new helmet...yup..motorbike helmet...nice man...matt black...not full face ah..but nice seh...i loike~~ so happy..cos he got 2 helmet..but the other one he uses for his work..then smelly seh...then another one is full face...so onli when he went out he use..then i cannot use any helmet..ya..so he bought a helmet...juz nice for my head...kherkherkher...like this..goin out wif him wif his bike will not be a prob. animore... ;) k k..then after tt...freshen up all tt..and call sha...yup..talk to her..then suddenly fardillah call..fardillah..my sec. sch mates..ya..she want to come to my hse tmrw...wanted to use the comp to do some checking all tt..ya..so ok lah..since i'm free...hehehe..then she was asking me want anything or not..to eat while lepak-ing at my hse..then i say ah..KFC..and she say like tt..delivery lah..whkahakhakhkha..wah..so kind of her..realli wanna buy it for me ah..hahahahaha...oklah she workin seh..rather than me...money no go in seh...go out tu ader lah..hehehe..but its ok..still i haf enuf..enuf for saving to buy present....hmmm...fardillah's b'dae comin up..on 31st may...shikin b'dae on 5th june..then sha's b'dae on 30th june...ermmm..then juz now..12th may..my kakak sedara b'dae..aiyoh..at lot seh...see lah if i haf enuf money to buy present...will try my best to save...hehehehe..k k..so..i tink till here lah..nothing much..juz finish playing pool @ yahoo wif nadz..so i tink gotta hit the sack already...sleepy..hehehe..nitez all...adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

ergghh!!! wat the hell seh..yesterday got song..then today gone..haiz~ like biskot lah...damn..boring again my blog..alamakkk..idiotic man...wateva lah..niwae..i gez today is not a gd day either...argghhhh!!! is my everyday goin to be LIKE THIS...haiz~ God...give me an answer for this...WHY..WHY..WHY..fine..if tts wat written in your book..then..i'll take it tt way..syukur alhamdulillah..amin~ k wateva..till here..adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

weee~~ at last got song on this blog of mine...if not its goin to be boring seh..hehe..niwae..sound familiar or not the song...hehehe..its the eamon song but the female version..title f*** u rite back..kherkher..so brutalz..but rite...i tink i'm goin to change to other songs..hehehe..fickle minded seh me.. =D but tt one later can do lah..for now..let me update ya all for today k..

alrite..u noe wat time last nite i sleep? i shouldn't say nite lah kan..cos its at 6.30 IN THE MORNING..ya..after puttin down wif fahmi..then i go update blog rite..then after tt i go arnd ppl's blog and tag them bout my new blog link..hehehe..so..at last sleep at 6.30...gosh...first time seh sleep tt them late..its like..better dun sleep rite..khakhakha..niwae..at 7am also my parents will wake up cos my dad need to go to work..ya..so..its ok lah..me juz cannot tahan..so suddenly blackness covered my eyes...then..suddenly..i realise something cool..like sprinkling of water at my face..me tinkin tt i was dreamin and was at the sea splashing water or wat..skali heard a voice tt is so damn familiar..a voice tt i heard everyday as a NAG..kherkherkher..ya its my mom..whakhakhkhakha..first time seh she sprinkle water on me...ahahahaha..then she was saying tt..eh eh..anak dara ni..sedap nye tido...ya Allah...mcm tk tido satu mlm gitu..and i was like..wat lah..shut up lah..hehehe..but then..i froze when i heard 1pm comin out frm my mom...and i was like...rubbing2 my eyes and then look at the time...gosh...matahari da kat atas kepala da...hehe..lucky she wake me up..if not..i tink at 2 or 3 lah i wake up...*grinz* but realli sia...tired u noe..hahahaha..i noe..its my fault lah..who go and ask me to talk till 5am..then update blog all tt rite..hehehehe..its oklah..once in a blue moon perrr...so..woke up..and had a splitting headache..so wash up..and then my mom was callin me to eat..i was like..wat..wake up je eat ah? hahahaha..wat to do..she prepared for me already..so i also eat lah..hehehe

then after eating..went online..ya..chat all tt...hmmmm...i miss sha alot seh..kherkher..onli a few days and my world can go upside down w/o seeing her...i miss all of them too...those fun..happening things..we share...hehehe..can't wait to meet up wif them...well..today was not quite a gd day for me..i dunno y..dun ask me..its like..i juz hate today lah..felt so not rite..and so juz now..i covered myself wif pillow and shout as loud as i can...shout n shout n shout..fuh~ so relieving...but still not tt satisfied..haiz~~ i duno wat i want seh..tinkin to go to east coast there and shout my heart out..but..hahaha..it will be like crazy person lah kan..i really need a calm place..peaceful all tt..then i remember the esplanade rooftop which fahmi told me yesterday...really hope to go there seh..somebody juz accompany me there and sit down...haiz~~ me need to do soul searchin...from last time..but it seems tt i haven found the rite place..i need to seh..have to..alot of things are inside this box in my head call mind..the word "why" was lingering evrywhere in there...and my mind was like goin berserk already seh..haiz~~..double haiz~~..watsup seh wif me..i noe the answer lies within me..but i myself dunno..tts y need to do thinking..and soul searchin as my questions of "why" will be answered...howeva..i doubt so tt all my "why" can be answered..mebbe some of them juz can't...onli God haf the answer..seriously my mind was filled up juz now..sampaikan when i want to go my aunt hse juz now..mcm2 happen..hehe..first of all..when boardin 293 frm my hse to the library bus stop..i bump into this kid tryin to get down..lucky he dun fall..if not..big case seh..hehe..i dunno..i was like zombie like tt..walkin..starin rite infront of me onli..w/o looking elsewhere...aniwae tt kid also small mah..then bus full..cannot see lah..hahahaha..excuses..hee..k k..then while waiting for 15..termenung lah sekejap...till 15 come also i dun realise..lucky alot of ppl took tt bus..so i got time to catch up..then takin 15 also got another thing happen..hehe..was looking outside the window onli..termenung..then my aunt bus stop lagi sikit nk miss seh...panic sekejap nk tekan bell..slamat ader this org pon yg slow like me...baru nk tekan bell..kherkherkher...i was larfin to myself when i get down the bus..i juz dunno watsup wif me today seh..

then reach my aunt hse..teaching tuition also wif not a good mood..my adek sedara was like playin wif me..and i juz shut him off..kherkher..poor him..then he smack my head and show his tongue to me..hahahaha..lucky 5 yrs old..still cute..hehe..if not..gonna get a smack on his head back..kherkher..so after tuition..watch "spice sibling"..followed by incredible tales...then my aunt make roti john cheese for us..and then head back home taking taxi..cos its like..10.45 already..hehehe..yup..reach home and went online..tinkin to see sha..but..where is she? haiz~~ its ok..mebbe she's tired..haf gone to sleep early...so..peepz..tink till here lah..adios~

i'm not a perfect person||as many things i wish i didn't do||but i continue learning

2004-05-11T13:51:00.000+08:00

YELLOW

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2004-05-11T05:00:00.000+08:00

hi there peepz..gosh..did u see the time now..its 5 in THE MORNING..ish...orite2..i gez u all must be wondering why i still neva sleep...ehehe..k ah..me juz finish talkin to my ex-crush for 6 years...hehehehe..ya..tt fahmi...nadz,nad,dib mite know him..cos they eva saw him workin at Whitesand McD..dunno whether they still remember la kan..aniwae..ya..at 2am juz now..receive a msg frm him askin whether i'm asleep or not...and ya..replied him tt nope..not yet..then ya..he call me..and we talk..till now..kherkherkher..long huh..niwae me miss him alot alot..hahahaha..for quite some time since i met him..niwae..he said he miss me too..awww..isnt tt sweet.....but haiz~ sadly he's a guy...and guys...haiz~~ sweet words..hehe..well..he sat for O level last yr..and doesnt manage to get in polytechnic..cos he fail his english gettin F9..aiyoh..he ah...if not can go seh..cos his maths got B4..but its ok lah..he told me tt he get into AMK ITE..yep..tt ITE somewhere quite near to MY skool..hehehe..i mean..NYP lah..ya..takin automotive course...yup..hee..he want to change to balestier..then i said y change..then he tink2 and said tt...yah ah..if AMK can go skool wif u...hahahaha...like he wants to go wif me..i doubt so..ya..we fought alot bout how guys wif their jerkiness and girls wif their bitchiness..ya..all the way when he do someting idiotic or sweet talkin..i keep repeatin haiz~~ guys..wateva..hahahaha...and at last he mengalah to me...i dunno lah either kalah or malas nk layan kan..

oh ya..he tell me bout this rooftop where u can go..its esplanade nye rooftop..he say tt i should try goin there..so calm..peaceful...but byk romen2 ah..hahaha..but nice place ah..then i was saying..ah..yok ah..kita gi meh..and he was like shock..ah? u wanna go wif me?? fida nk gi ngan aku?? and i was like...huh? tk leh ke...hehehe..yelah..i tink he dun like the idea or feels yuck goin there only wif me kan..hahahahaha..niwae..tk semestinye gi situ dua org je nk beromen perr...alerrmekk...hehehe..but ya lah..talk to him was a great one..oh ya..he remember seh bout me tellin him bout "HIM"..and ask me ah how i wif him now ah..and i said tt...not animore ah..frm there lah we started to fight over the matter of guys jerkiness all tt..hehehe..he also broke off wif his girl..but sadly..he slalu yg kena dump kan..hehehe..well..not his luck niwae..kindda the male version of me...put all my heart in to the relationship..haiz~ niwae..tkpelah..single life..quite interestin too wat...hehehe..k lah..i m really2 sleepy now..really haf to hit the sack already..hehehe..so..till here ya..adios~

2004-05-11T01:52:00.000+08:00

hi hi hi...fuh~ wat a day seh..spent quite alot of time for this new blog..hehe..niwae..since i use blogspot..now i can update eventho i'm at skool..but for now..its a holiday!!! hehehe..ya ya..hope so..insya'Allah a great holiday..juz dun want to touch those books n notes to study for supp. uh uh..*shake head* no way...hee =D ok ok..this blog here quite simple la kan...niwae..this is for starting onli..hehehe...so..simple2 also can lah..later when i find more cool and wow skin then i change ya..my blogdrive..i dunno whether to close it or not...mcm sayang gitu..hehe..i tink i haf to let go of tt blog...i'm sory my blogdrive...hehehe..niwae..this is the 2nd time i move blog ya..first from ujournal to blogdrive then now to blogspot..then later to diaryland..then to pitas...hehehe..no lah..u tink i got so much time ah to change blog like change my underwear like tt...khakhakhakha...ni pon cos of holiday...hehe..so the mood was there u see...*grinz*

k k..today was a tiring day for me..as last nite i slept at 4am juz configuring this blog..then juz now from mornin till 4pm was putting all my hard work for this blog UNTIL my mom cut off the internet connection...ARGGHHH!!! frust seh...me was like bursting already seh..lucky got "something" tt at least cool me down...if not ah..haiz~~ my poor mom will get one damn spankin in out up down from me...hehehe..ya..save from bein rude..*winkz* but reali ah..like want to cry seh me..the phone in the living room was not suppose to pick up cos there..the phoneline dun haf filter..onli the phone in my room got..so tt means..when using my broadband...the phone in my room can onli pick up..haiz~~ its ok lah..lucky a blog..not some project thingy tt i've done for 1 week or so...hee..k k..so gif up already..i switch off my comp. and get ready to go to my auntie hse..to teach tuition..ya...stay at her hse till 10pm juz now..after the chinese show "spice siblings"..my aunt came back from McD and bought chicken fillet..ate it and went off..tinkin to take taxi as it was late already..since i wanna save money for my usage this holiday..i took bus home..reach home at 10.30pm and then went online...yup..finish up my blog..and..yippeee..now juz finish..hehehe...k lah..goin to teach tuition again later...so..till now ya..adios~

-=[but u noe tt its over we noe tt its thru..let it burn..let it burn..gotta let it burn]=-

2004-05-10T01:25:00.000+08:00

testin..testin..hehehe...yippeee...change to blogspot already...lalalalalala...best nyerrr...